Signed testimony of Helga Gross
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- My name is Helga Schwededsr.
- I was born in Hamburg, Germany.
- Yes, Hamburg.
- I was born January 15, 1923.
- I'm 78 years old now.
- I'm a Lutheran.
- I belong to the Lutheran Church.
- No, I was born deaf.
- No, I don't know the cause.
- The cause was never determined.
- I was just born deaf.
- No, my parents were hearing.
- I'm the oldest.
- I have two brothers and two sisters.
- My youngest brother is deaf.
- And he was born deaf the same as I was,
- with no determined cause.
- We went to the school for the deaf.
- There was a school for the deaf in Hamburg,
- and I went to that school.
- And I learned by lip reading.
- And I learned to read lips when I went into the school.
- And the rules were that the children in class
- had to learn by lip reading.
- We signed outside of the classroom,
- but in the classroom, we had to lip read.
- Outside of the class, it was permitted for us to sign.
- My father worked as an import/export--
- he worked in the import/export business.
- My father's name was Edward Schwededsr.
- Anthony Gambain was his maiden name.
- I was first born.
- Second born was my sister, Ursula, and then
- my deaf brother, Raymond--
- or then a brother Raymond.
- Then a hearing sister.
- My last was a hearing sister, Elsbeth.
- We learned grammar, English, we learned
- writing, reading and writing.
- We learned to read lips.
- We practiced reading lips in school.
- There were eight of us in the classroom, four boys
- and four girls, and we sat in a semicircle around the teacher.
- The four boys sat on one side of the semicircle,
- and the girls sat on the other side,
- and the teacher stood in the middle.
- Oh, we were taught the alphabet, our ABCs,
- the beginnings of the learning process
- that all children learn, writing, reading.
- Oh, yes, we did socialize.
- Outside of class, we had our recess
- and we had our playtime outside of the class.
- I went to that school until I was
- 14 with the same group of students.
- We didn't-- I didn't mix with other students.
- We went through all seven years of school
- together in that group.
- Oh, yes.
- I did socialize with many hearing adults,
- deaf adults also, older people.
- They were very smart.
- Actually smarter than my classmates,
- of course, because they were adults.
- I learned a lot from them.
- We talked about history and politics.
- I went into school in 1937--
- no, 1937 is when I was 14 years old and I was out of school
- at that point.
- Yes, then after that, I became a house daughter.
- It's called a house daughter.
- I learned from my mother to do household chores,
- cooking, sewing, cleaning, everything like that.
- I was intended to go to another household, another hearing
- family, but I was deaf, and I was fortunate
- that my mother, if you will, hired me into our own home
- to work as a house daughter.
- When President Hindenburg passed away, Hitler assumed power.
- Hindenburg was the president of Germany at that time,
- and he had been for many, many years.
- He was elderly and then he passed away
- and Hitler took power.
- The country was very shocked at that time
- because we didn't know who Hitler was.
- He sort of came out of nowhere.
- He took power so quickly.
- It wasn't like here in America.
- The process was very different.
- Here, in America, you have a competition
- for the vote of the American people.
- In Germany at that time, we were not given any free choice.
- It was simply Hitler assumed power.
- I saw many people in the streets crying over that decision.
- My father was very mum, was very quiet at that time.
- But I saw-- saw my father's face at that point.
- My mother's face was filled-- my mother was--
- face was filled with tears.
- We didn't know much as children because we
- were so young, of course.
- We really didn't know what was going on.
- I was 15 or 16 when my mother got
- a letter that said that I was going
- to be taken to the hospital and be sterilized.
- And she didn't tell me, of course,
- until the date loomed so closely that she
- felt forced to tell me.
- I was in the kitchen cooking and I was going about my business,
- and I was--
- it was just a regular day.
- My mother came in with this very odd look on her face,
- and I asked her, mother--
- I asked her what was wrong, and finally she
- was able to tell me that she was going
- to need to take me to the hospital for sterilization.
- I was very calm.
- My mom was confused.
- I thought she would--
- she thought that I would scream or run away.
- It was just that I was so calm.
- My mom was confused and asked me why I was so calm.
- I told her that the rest of my classmates
- had already been sterilized and I was the only one that
- wasn't sterilized and I thought it was fair for me
- to be sterilized the same as my classmates.
- My mother went very calm and quiet.
- It wasn't until I was older that I became depressed
- and realized when I saw my sister's baby
- what had been done to me.
- I realized that I could never have a baby.
- I mean, I was touched, and I went to the bathroom
- very quickly to hide my tears.
- I came back from the bathroom.
- My sister asked me what was the matter, asked me
- why I was crying, and I told her that I was just
- so happy to see such a beautiful baby.
- I hid my feelings underneath my pride.
- My father hid his tears when I went to the hospital.
- My mother took me to the hospital
- to the neonatal section.
- We didn't go to the main hospital.
- We went to a much smaller hospital.
- It was very charming, very beautiful.
- The people were so nice there.
- The doctor was an older man.
- Made me feel very comfortable.
- When I was 15 or 16 years old, I had the surgery,
- and I woke up feeling the pain from the surgery,
- but I had a sandbag on my abdomen.
- The doctor came to visit me very often and check on me.
- He gave me books to read and he visited me often
- in the hospital.
- My mother would come and comfort me.
- I did ask about my father.
- My mother told me that he was embarrassed
- and didn't want to be seen crying in public.
- That's why he wouldn't come to visit me.
- My sister came and visited me.
- My second sister opened the door very quietly
- and peeked in the room.
- I saw her face, and she was so sad.
- I just-- she was scared, and I just responded by laughing.
- I told her that the expression was so funny
- that she was so puzzled.
- When I laughed at her, she thought--
- she thought that I would cry, but I was laughing
- and that's why she was so puzzled.
- Then, next, my classmates came and visited me in the hospital.
- They all cried when they saw me.
- And I wondered why they were so upset,
- because now, I felt that we were all in the same boat.
- They told me that they had hoped that I would be the one
- to have the baby so that they could all
- be godmothers to my child.
- Yes, my uncle, my brother's-- my mother's brother was a judge
- in Hamburg, and he tried to protect me from that trip
- to the hospital for sterilization.
- But the Nazis were so powerful at the time
- that my uncle really had no recourse.
- So they took me in for the operation.
- So as time went along, I got married.
- My husband, like me, did have the surgery as well.
- But his surgery was awful.
- He had to go to the hospital, but his family
- resisted the going to the hospital
- and they ignored the letters, so the police came to his door
- and forced his family to take him to the hospital.
- They tied him down on the bed, on the operating table.
- And so that was very painful for him.
- They didn't give him any drugs for the pain.
- When he and I found out that we were both sterilized,
- he thought that we'd make a perfect match,
- so he asked me to marry him.
- He refused to marry a woman who could bear children.
- My husband's name is Joach Impetsrs.
- I met him in a swimming tournament in Leipzig
- and fell immediately in love with him.
- He used to live in East Germany and I lived in West Germany.
- At that time, the border was up because of the war
- and he escaped East Germany to come to West Germany
- to ask me to marry him.
- He asked me to marry him and moved to East Germany
- to live with him.
- So I did, and we lived together in East Germany
- for about 2 and 1/2 years, and then
- we escaped to West Germany.
- And my husband was a carpenter.
- The reason we moved to West Germany
- was because we were fed up with the communism.
- West Germany was freedom, meant freedom for us.
- East Germany was just oppressive with the communism.
- I have a lot of stories about how
- we escaped into West Germany.
- My husband and I went to visit my parents.
- My husband's relatives lived near the border,
- and they helped us escape East Germany into West Germany.
- We asked them to guide us into West Germany
- and they were happy to do so.
- So my husband's relatives told a Russian soldier
- that we wanted just to visit West Germany.
- The Russian soldier asked us if we would be back
- and we responded, of course we'll be back.
- So the soldier let us visit.
- My parents were so happy to see us.
- They asked if we could stay for good.
- I had so many things in East Germany,
- for example, my papers, my language books,
- and everything else.
- My parents said we could try.
- So my mother and I went to see the police
- about interviewing from East Germany to West Germany.
- The police said that my husband and I
- could move within six weeks if there
- was no report for a missing persons.
- If there was a report of such missing persons,
- then the police would have to send us back.
- So the police would hold my papers until my husband
- and I moved into West Germany.
- So we left the police station.
- My husband and I went back to East Germany, told only a few
- of my friends.
- My friends told us that we were very
- smart to stay in West Germany, that the East German country--
- East Germany was in such poor shape
- that we'd be better off in the West.
- I had to be careful who I told about our intent to move.
- We didn't want any rumors floating around,
- anyone to find out what our plans were.
- That means we had to be very secretive
- and we had to be very careful when we packed.
- Our suitcases were so heavy.
- We had sold all of our furniture.
- We had put the furniture in a wagon in the dark
- to drop off at different furniture
- stores around East Germany.
- And we did it in the evening, in the dark
- because if we sold our furniture in the daytime,
- people would start to become curious
- and an investigation may pursue.
- And we didn't want the police to put us in jail.
- We were very afraid because we knew
- that such an infraction could mean a long jail sentence.
- So thank god my husband had an accident with his knife.
- He was trying to cut some wood, and the wood
- was so hard the knife ended up cutting his thumb.
- So he wrapped his thumb in a towel
- and went to see a doctor, friend of his at work.
- The doctor told him that he could not
- work for two to three months.
- So he was at that point, then, unemployed.
- However, the accident was really a godsend
- and helped us to escape.
- The reason being is that my husband's boss would never
- know that he was absent from the job for other reasons then.
- Just simply he had cut his finger and he couldn't work.
- If we had not had that accident, then
- trying to disappear from the house would be very difficult.
- It was a perfect chance to disappear.
- We had friends to help us carry the suitcases for many miles.
- We had a branch of a birch tree, a branch
- of a tree between the suitcases and we each
- carried the suitcases because they were so heavy,
- and we each had a suitcase on our back.
- We had a couple of friends help us carrying the suitcases.
- But we figured that people would start to wonder about us.
- We were so close to the train station.
- We were lucky because the weather was so beautiful.
- It tended to rain often during that season and we
- didn't want the rain to--
- we were so happy that it wasn't raining
- because we didn't want our suitcases to become
- waterlogged.
- So we were about three blocks from the train stations
- and our friends had to return to their own homes,
- and it was time for the train to come into the station.
- So we were left just the two of us with our heavy suitcases.
- So that was double difficult for us to carry.
- Oh, before I forget to tell you, yes, I
- remember we arrived at the house near the border.
- The person who lived in that house
- was willing to help us, to lead us to the border to cross over
- into West Germany.
- The house was on a hill with a fence around it.
- It was a beautiful hill.
- Then up on the other hill there were a lot of trees.
- So we stopped at the ask--
- we stopped at the house to ask for guidance across the border.
- The guide had a police dog and he saw us
- with so many suitcases.
- He was not surprised.
- He was familiar with people trying to cross the border.
- My husband told--
- I told my husband, why not take half of the suitcases across
- and leave the other half and we'll
- come back for the other half?
- My husband said it was better to carry
- all the suitcases at once.
- So we asked the guy to help us, but the guide
- said no, that he would not help us carry anything.
- The man said that if he helped carry things
- he could end up in jail.
- So he was just there to help us cross the border.
- So we decided to go ahead and carry all the suitcases
- at once.
- So we put more suitcases on our back and we were ready to go.
- We had to climb up the hill.
- I was walking so close to the ground
- with all that heavy weight on my back.
- If I walked upright, I would fall backwards
- and roll down the hill because the suitcases were so heavy.
- I kept my body close to the ground
- so that we would not fall over.
- So all these suitcases and my husband and I and the guide
- walked up to the top of the hill where we could see the border.
- There were two Russian soldiers talking to each other
- at the border.
- When one soldier walked away, we were
- free to walk through the border.
- It was just a short crossing into West Germany.
- This was fall time and the colors were very beautiful
- in the trees.
- There was a small stone road going down to the border.
- There were two men in a Jeep with movie equipment driving
- down the stone road, and they saw us.
- We tried to hide in the bushes and the guy tried
- to cover our bodies for us, but somehow,
- the two men in the Jeep saw us.
- These men told the guide that they
- were willing to help us cross the border.
- We were hiding in the bushes with the guide
- just standing off to the side.
- We thought that the men in the Jeep wouldn't see us,
- but somehow, they saw us.
- And the guide said that they were willing to help us.
- So the guy told us to run as fast
- as we could to get down to the Jeep
- and put all our suitcases in their Jeep.
- So we ran as fast as we could all the way
- down this hill with all of our heavy suitcases
- while the Russian soldiers had their backs to us.
- It was so awkward carrying all those suitcases.
- So then the men in the Jeep put helped
- us put all of our suitcases in their car, in their Jeep
- and we ran as fast as we could on the curve stone road--
- on the curved stone road.
- The men in the Jeep drove down the hill
- all the way across the border.
- The first person that I saw when I crossed the border
- was a German police officer.
- I looked down at his uniform.
- I knew that we were in West Germany.
- I bent down and I kissed his boot.
- I felt like I was a free bird now.
- Of course, my husband was out of breath.
- We were hurt and sweating all over.
- The movie men returned our suitcases.
- We thanked them profusely for helping us
- and they went on their way.
- The German police asked us-- took us aside and asked us
- if we had any German money.
- The police wanted to make sure that we didn't
- steal from the train station.
- So my husband unwrapped his bandaged thumb.
- The police didn't really understand
- why he was doing that at first, but police
- waited to see until the thumb was unwrapped,
- and there was money inside the bandage.
- There was a little--
- how do you say?
- My husband had put a condom, if you
- will, a condom full of money underneath his bandaged thumb.
- Well, the police were shocked.
- They were amazed.
- They thought that we were very intelligent, very
- smart for having hidden our money that way.
- So the police counted the money and then let us go free.
- We walked down the hill and took a look at the bus schedule
- and waited for three hours, which
- was just perfect for us because we went to a little cafe
- and had something to eat while we were waiting for the bus.
- We were very careful with our money.
- We were trying to save enough money for our train tickets.
- So my husband and I went and removed all of our wet clothes
- and put on fresh clothes and the bus arrived with tourists
- visiting West Germany.
- The day was so beautiful and the birds were flying all around.
- I felt like singing.
- We were so hungry, we went to the restaurant
- and ordered a hot dog.
- We bought one hot dog, and we ate this hot dog
- so very slowly.
- We were so exhausted.
- We needed so much rest but we couldn't sleep on the road
- when we were going to the border at the same time.
- We had to take turns, one keeping
- watch and one taking rest.
- So we both were able to sleep on the bus and the train station.
- And we bought our tickets for the train,
- and then we rode the train all night.
- It was really a very difficult time
- to sleep because the seats on the train were so difficult,
- but we were going to Hamburg and it was all right.
- I looked at the schedule, and there were 5--
- there was 5 to 10 minutes to wait between trains to Hamburg,
- and that mean we had to run--
- that meant we had to run to catch another train in 5
- to 10 minutes.
- I didn't think that we could catch another train in that
- short a time.
- There was another choice, but we had to wait for many hours
- to catch the train.
- We rode a train with one man.
- It was so interesting, he asked us where we were from.
- We told him that we were from East Germany.
- He was so interested in us.
- He asked us how we escaped from East Germany.
- He had lived-- he lived in the West.
- We told him that we asked for help.
- We had to get a guide.
- We said that alone, we couldn't have made it.
- The man listen to our story and said thank you.
- He thought that we were very brave.
- We went to another train station and put our suitcases
- in storage.
- Now, with lighter packs on our back,
- we could walk to the train and walk to my mother's house.
- My parents were so happy to see us.
- And we stayed in West Germany for good.
- It was so wonderful.
- My parents didn't know what a hard time we'd
- had escaping from East Germany.
- She just knew that we were very tired
- and needed to sleep before we could
- report our adventures to her.
- And she was very shocked about our stories.
- Yes, we settled in the West.
- We stayed there.
- My parents gave us permission to stay at their home.
- The reason is we looked so tired and we
- couldn't look for an apartment on our own right away.
- It was quite a challenge to find our own apartment,
- so we stayed with my parents until my mother's close friend
- passed away.
- My friend's room was available for us,
- so we got permission to stay at my friend's home.
- We stayed in Hamburg for about two years
- until we moved to the United States,
- where my husband worked as a carpenter
- and I worked as a weaver.
- Well, we were looking for freedom.
- We had agreed a long time ago that what we wanted to do
- was live in the United States.
- The reason my husband's aunt and uncle lived in--
- the reason was that my husband's aunt and uncle
- lived in Detroit, Michigan.
- My husband's aunt told us that we
- needed to move to West Germany first before we could
- move to the United States.
- And if we lived in East Germany, it
- was going to be impossible for us to emigrate to the United
- States because of communism.
- So we moved to West Germany.
- And then my husband's uncle was willing to help
- us move to America.
- He went to the consulate to ask for the papers
- to help us move to America.
- He was told by the consulate that members
- of the family that are deaf are not allowed to emigrate.
- The consulate rejected the paperwork because at that time
- the United States refused to accept deaf immigrants.
- They also refused the mentally retarded and the homosexual.
- So we were very upset, dejected at this rejection.
- So we stayed in West Germany with a man
- from Boston, Massachusetts.
- And he was visiting Europe at the time.
- He traveled to Hamburg, and we visited him.
- He liked us so much we all became very close friends.
- His name was Tom Rule.
- Later, we told Tom about the United States and the paperwork
- and that we were rejected, and we asked Tom
- if he would help us.
- He wanted to know why we wanted to go to America.
- We told him that we wanted our freedom.
- We relayed our story that my husband's uncle tried
- to help us, and Tom Rule said that he
- would help us get to America.
- He said that he would go to the American consulate
- and ask for the paperwork.
- Well, we were rejected again when the embassy found out
- we were deaf.
- That happened in 1954--
- no, 1951.
- That was in 1951 that we rejected.
- Yes, it was 1951, about that we were rejected again
- by the embassy.
- They found out we were deaf.
- But Tom said not to worry about it,
- that he would wait until his vacation was over.
- When he returned to America, he would get the paperwork
- for both of us.
- So Tom went to the government in Washington DC, Congress,
- I guess, to the Office of Congress,
- I suppose, and he asked if two deaf friends of his
- could come to America from Germany.
- He explained that we so desperately
- wanted to come to America.
- Well, the woman agreed at the House of Congress.
- They were wonderful people.
- And she gave us the stamp of the United States.
- She sent the paper to us.
- My father was so impressed when we
- got the paperwork because Tom had followed through
- on his promise.
- He was just so wonderful.
- We were on a waiting list for less than two years.
- Then the United States embassy called us to go be sworn in.
- So we went and promised that we would
- obey all the laws of America, and we
- had to take a physical exam as well.
- They tested our feet.
- They had to check us all over physically, make sure
- that we were in good shape.
- We needed to stand up right and put our arms out and bend over,
- and then the inspector taught us that we
- could go to the United States because we
- were both in such good shape.
- When we arrived, we got to New York.
- Tom Rule picked us up and we stayed with him
- for several weeks.
- Then he drove us to Detroit, Michigan
- to meet my husband's aunt and uncle.
- At first, we were--
- our plan was to stay with Tom in Boston.
- My mother told us that we would have better lives
- with relatives in Michigan.
- And she didn't really feel comfortable
- with us staying with Tom.
- She would prefer us to stay with my husband's family.
- So we did that for my mom's sake.
- My husband and I stayed at his aunt's home in Detroit.
- My husband got a job as a model carpenter,
- and he went through college at the same time
- to learn all about English and math and the like.
- I became a housewife, and we stayed in Detroit for 19 years.
- Then we moved to San Diego, California.
- That was in 1972.
- So we moved to San Diego.
- And yes, we were very happy there.
- My husband got a job at the Naval--
- the Naval Air Station, same as before, as a carpenter.
- And he worked there until he retired.
- And then, sadly, two years after retirement,
- he passed away from cancer.
- I was a widow for 13 years, and then I met my second husband.
- My second husband's name is Bernard Gross.
- And we've been married for 2 and 1/2 years.
- Oh, well, my father--
- my father was dead against the Nazis,
- but he wouldn't tell anyone about his opinion.
- He didn't want the Nazis to put him
- in jail for his political beliefs.
- So he had to be very careful.
- We learned much about politics in school.
- In Germany, people are required to have the German flag up
- on the flag pole all the time and everyone
- must learn the German songs, the national songs.
- We were very scared for a very long time.
- It was a reign of fear.
- My teacher forced me to join the NSDAP and pledge
- allegiance to the German flag.
- And the reason that I had to do that
- was because I was a Girl Scout and I was involved in scouting.
- I know how to talk with hearing and deaf students.
- So I was scared about having to leave
- my papers because I was a member of the NSDAP,
- and that was a Nazi group.
- When I got my job as a weaver, I was
- an apprentice under a higher weaver and my weaving teachers.
- I had to go work.
- That was six hours away from home.
- My job was in an island just north of East Germany.
- My teacher had two jobs.
- One job was in Hamburg and the other
- was on the island called Westland.
- So I told my school teacher that I wanted to go work up north.
- My teacher told me to bring my papers with me when I traveled
- to the Westland island.
- I was so uncomfortable about this
- and I thought that I could get away without taking the paper,
- but I was totally wrong.
- The paper said that I was a member of the Nazi party
- and I didn't want to go to Westland with my papers.
- I mean, my mind, and my body, my spirit,
- wouldn't let me take that paper with me.
- But I had to take the paper with me.
- When I lived in Hamburg, there was a Nazi guard
- between my home and my job.
- I was so scared because the Nazi guard had
- a brown uniform and a gun, and every time I would see him,
- I would ask myself, should I pass by the guard
- or should I walk around the guard?
- I had to keep my papers with me at all times.
- Then the bomb destroyed Hamburg and I felt so lucky
- that I had the paper with me.
- And it just happened.
- I just was lucky that way.
- My school teacher died in the bomb blast.
- And I wasn't sure then if I should
- throw the paper away or not.
- I was very scared around that piece of paper.
- I didn't know what to do with it.
- At the same time, my parents lost their home in the bomb
- and they escaped to the south.
- So I asked my weaving teacher to let me go visit my parents.
- The weaver teacher refused to let me go visit my parents,
- and I begged her again.
- I wanted to see my parents.
- They were living in the south, in Bavaria now.
- Then the Allies came, America came, and we were liberated,
- and I was so happy that I could tear that piece of paper
- up and throw it in the fire can.
- I just said goodbye to the Nazis.
- I don't know if--
- I didn't know at that time that the president had
- died in the bomb or not, but I felt so light
- without all that fear.
- In my classroom in school, it was my duty twice a week,
- because I was a Girl Scout, to teach political songs and about
- the Third Reich to my fellow students.
- My teacher believed that I was so wonderful
- in my teaching capacity.
- So I was teaching students the same age as myself.
- And when the teacher would leave the room,
- I would change my role.
- I would stop teaching political ideology to the other students
- and I would share stories about movies that we saw.
- And the other students would tell stories about movies
- that they saw.
- And then when the teacher came back into the room,
- we would change back into our regular roles
- about talking politics and history again.
- Years later, some of my classmates
- told me that they never forgot that time
- and how I taught them and we talked about movies.
- It was a wonderful time.
- Is he sleeping?
- I think he's sleeping.
- It's difficult. My husband, Joachim,
- is a very soft spoken man.
- He's very quiet.
- He's very private.
- He doesn't like to talk about the war and his pain.
- I try to make him talk to me about it.
- My experience with him is that it's very hard
- to get his stories from him and his experience
- with sterilization.
- Whenever people talk to us about children,
- ask us if we have children, my husband
- always said that no, we don't have any children
- because we were sterilized.
- People ask him how they did it to him,
- and my husband is very hurt.
- It was a very painful-- it's a very painful time for him,
- that whole sterilization problem.
- The nurses tied him down and didn't comfort him.
- The doctor didn't give him a pain shot, any medication.
- It was very difficult for many reasons.
- My brother was deaf and my mother
- got a letter to send my brother for sterilization.
- So he went to the hospital, and somehow, the hospital was full.
- There were many wounded soldiers there
- and there was no vacancy for my brother
- so the doctor told him to come back
- when they had a bed for him.
- Let's see, we were about five years apart in age.
- So now, we would be--
- I don't know.
- But we were about five years apart in age.
- Jewish people, I mean--
- I'm trying to remember if I saw--
- I didn't see Jews very often.
- They seemed to disappear so quickly.
- I mean, the only time I remember seeing
- them is when I was very young when I went to the--
- there was a park near our home and I would go play there
- and I would see the Jewish kids there.
- There was a girl who was actually
- taller than I am, taller than I was,
- and we played together quite often.
- Until a few years later, then the Jewish people
- all started to disappear.
- Really, I didn't know where they went.
- I did see the Star of David on their coat,
- but I really at that time didn't have any idea.
- It wasn't until years later when America came and entered
- the war and liberated us that I started
- to discover some of the news that I hadn't
- known when I was a child.
- In Bavaria, I heard there was a Jewish concentration camp where
- many of them ended up.
- And I learned about the uniforms that they
- had to wear, the black and white stripes,
- and I saw pictures of them being very
- weak and thin and emaciated in front of the concentration
- camps.
- And the Nazis standing in those pictures
- were very big, large, well-fed, and they
- were wearing warm coats.
- All those Nazis went to jail.
- And when my mother found out about this,
- she started to scream and she felt
- like that she wanted to do something
- to help these Jewish people.
- But we really didn't have any food at all,
- and we were all surprised that we didn't know about this news
- until much later.
- They disappeared through all those years,
- and we didn't go back to Hamburg.
- And when the American troops entered Germany,
- we found out a lot of things that the Nazis did
- that we were unaware of before.
- They couldn't go back to Hamburg because the train was out
- of order and the city of Hamburg was totally destroyed anyway.
- I needed to go back to work because I could not depend
- on my family to support me.
- There was a bus service for troops, so I kept my eyes open
- and asked the troops where they were going,
- and the troops told me they were going up north.
- I asked them if I could join them and they said, of course,
- I was welcome to join them.
- It took me some time to get packed and get
- ready to take the trip up north, but I
- waited until the troops were on the bus and I joined them.
- My brother who is deaf lives in Hamburg.
- And so the bus stopped at a few places along the way.
- I was so hungry one time a farmer stopped and gave me
- some apples and let us get off the bus and take a rest.
- So there were a few stops on the way
- to the north where people would get on the bus
- or get off the bus.
- There was a couple who joined us on the bus.
- They were so thin.
- They were such a beautiful couple.
- It really just touched my heart.
- I looked so strong and healthy, and they were so thin.
- My mother had given me bread and I had rationed that bread,
- ate a little bit each day to make sure that I had enough.
- But at that time I wasn't hungry,
- and I had kept the bread for so many days,
- and I thought, I better give that bread to the young couple.
- And their first response was they just kissed me,
- they were so grateful.
- They were very careful eating the bread.
- And I said to myself, you know, bless them.
- I felt so good.
- I didn't even care if I would get hungry.
- It was better to see this young couple eat.
- Then I got to my stop, got off the bus,
- and the first thing I did was to visit my aunt
- at a senior citizens home.
- My aunt was so happy to see me.
- That was wonderful.
- I went to work as a Weaver.
- My boss was so happy to see me.
- I still worked for the weaving industry.
- Until I found out about the concentration camps.
- And my husband's father helped some Jews escape.
- He was so anti-Nazi and anti the Third Reich that he helped some
- Nazis--
- some Jews escape.
- My father was hoping to hear that the Jewish people arrived
- in a safe place.
- However, after the Jewish people were gone,
- there wasn't any news of them.
- Jewish people would disappear, and then I
- met some Jewish people in America.
- Hamburg was not a Jewish town.
- Most of the people in town were Lutheran.
- So there were a lot of-- there was a lot of voice
- in that town against Nazism.
- Like I said, they were hard to find.
- There weren't many Jewish people in my town
- or around that I could see until I got to America.
- I met more Jewish people in America.
- There was lots of anti-Nazi sentiment
- in our town in Hamburg.
- Oh, the sterilization.
- Yes, we-- about the sterilization, my husband
- told me that he went to Scandinavia.
- He went from Hamburg to Scandinavia
- for a swimming tournament.
- He wanted to know why we were sterilized.
- Well, when the situation about the Nazi government
- was explained to him and why he was sterilized,
- he just thought it was so awful he just fainted.
- I guess I've gotten a little tougher.
- I'm used to the idea--
- I was used to the idea of sterilization
- before it happened to me because I
- had seen so many of my friends be sterilized.
- Many of the people from Detroit and San Diego and Tom Rule
- even asked me about children.
- I explained to them that I cannot have children.
- They ask if I want children, I have children,
- and I explain why I can't have children.
- It makes people very sad and they often
- cry because it was such an awful time.
- I see their expressions, and that's difficult.
- Well, when I was young where I went to school--
- let's see, I was I was 10 or 11 years old.
- There was another teacher in our classroom, not
- our regular teacher, a substitute teacher,
- and his face was so sad when he came to the classroom.
- He looked, he peered into the window
- and we were all just waiting for him.
- We said nothing.
- And that day, he didn't teach us anything.
- So we all just started to talk.
- He returned to his desk and he said he was short of breath
- and his tongue was tied when he gave us the news that we all
- had to go to the hospital for sterilization.
- We were very puzzled.
- I mean, we didn't really understand what he meant.
- So he explained the sterilization process
- to all of us and that we would not be able to have children.
- We still didn't understand about the children part,
- so he explained that as we grew up, we would get married,
- and most people would then go ahead and have children,
- and so we start to understand the process of how
- a baby develops.
- And he told us that we couldn't have babies
- because of the sterilization.
- We asked him why.
- He said that the Nazis forced him to tell us.
- They wanted to have a smaller deaf population
- so they were choosing sterilization
- as a method to do that.
- So the Nazis had forced us to be sterilized.
- And that's what he explained to us.
- We were also shocked when we looked at each other.
- I mean, I was thinking--
- I wasn't used to seeing a teacher who
- was-- his face was so sad.
- He was very much against Nazism, and he
- was a big supporter of freedom.
- When the Nazis found out about his political beliefs,
- the soldiers came and put him in jail.
- Somehow, my teacher evaded the police by hanging himself.
- Which I really didn't understand until years
- later when I found out that he was so anti-Nazi
- and that he had hanged himself.
- And I just felt so sad.
- And he felt so bad for us because we were deaf
- and we were going to be sterilized.
- When school finished for the day,
- I went home and asked my mother about the topic
- of sterilization.
- And my mom was so shocked, her tongue was tied.
- My classmates, who were about 10 years old--
- and she-- my mother was shocked that they would explain
- to us children that we were going to be sterilized
- and to take us to the hospital for sterilization.
- My mother didn't know how to explain this
- to such a young person.
- There was no news.
- There was no prior Warning to any of this.
- They just came and got us.
- They came-- we were told that it was our turn,
- our number was up, and we were going to the hospital.
- And I hadn't heard anything.
- Lots of my classmates had had suffered this fate,
- and I hadn't heard anything.
- Lots of my classmates has already
- gotten a letter for sterilization.
- I was the last person.
- They all, as I said, wanted to be the godmother of my baby.
- Then, when I was 15 years old, I got my letter,
- and my mother's brother, the judge, tried to intervene,
- but their hands were tied because the Nazis were
- so powerful.
- So I did end up going into the hospital for sterilization.
- There was one boy from Guatemala,
- he was older than myself and he really liked me.
- His parents sent him to Hamburg to live with his uncle
- and learn the German language.
- His uncle was a policeman, a bounty hunter,
- I guess you would call him, to catch people
- who had escaped from jail.
- His uncle told him and then he told me about the Nazi plan
- to kill people in Germany.
- I was so surprised, I really--
- I didn't tell any of my classmates.
- He told me that when the Nazis were finished
- killing the Jewish people, the mentally retarded,
- and the blind, the last people that they wanted to kill
- were the deaf.
- So I was so scared.
- I went to see my aunt, who was my father's sister,
- and she was also anti-Nazi.
- I had another aunt who supported the Nazis.
- There were quite a lot of disagreements among my aunts
- there.
- Anyway, I told one of my aunts who was against the Nazi
- about the boy who told me of the Nazis plan to kill deaf people.
- My aunt told me that I was right.
- That was the reason that she had kept a radio
- to keep updated on the war and the goings on.
- And she could hear the radio station from England.
- We were all very interested about what
- was going on in the war.
- If the Nazis found out about my aunt and the radio,
- she could end up in jail.
- There was a lot of interesting information and dissenting
- views on the war that we heard over Der Achtung, the fight
- against the French.
- She would hear all that information
- on the radio station.
- So she would hear all of that.
- And if the Nazis found out that she had that radio
- and was listening to those English broadcasts,
- then she would be put in jail.
- So we had to be very careful about what we were speaking of.
- I took another train trip to visit
- an aunt who lived in German--
- who lived in Munich.
- This aunt also was against the Nazis.
- She happened to be good friends of Picasso.
- Picasso, the painter.
- Well, she was in France, in Paris for a couple of years,
- and she was staying there and Picasso
- wanted her to stay in France.
- He wanted her to leave Germany and come live in France.
- But she couldn't.
- They were told that she was from Germany
- and they had to move back.
- So my aunt returned to Munich.
- She was so angry with the Germans
- because she wanted to live in France.
- When I told her what that boy had told me about the Nazi plan
- to kill all the Jews and the deaf people,
- she thought that was so terrible.
- She was the one who taught me not to sign any papers
- and not to join any Nazi youth groups or any of that.
- So I followed my aunt's advice.
- She said I could get brainwashed if I joined the Nazis
- and I would never have a chance to move to America.
- So that's the reason that when the embassy asked me in America
- if I was a part a member of any Nazi youth
- group or any Nazi group, I answered loud and clear,
- absolutely not.
- And so that's helped me escape and come to the United States.
- And I have much thanks for my aunt and that boy from school.
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- Interviewee
- Helga Gross
- Interviewer
- Dr. Simon Carmel
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