- Today is Sunday, December 21, 1980.
- My name is Fran Gutterman.
- I'm at the home of Brenda Wluka, who resides
- in Milton, Massachusetts.
- And I am here to conduct an oral history with Ms. Wluka.
- OK, could you tell me where you were born?
- I was born in Poland, in a little town, which
- was called Podberezhe, which was about 50 kilometers
- from the main city, Vilna.
- And what year was that when you were born?
- I was born in 1929, January 22.
- OK, could you tell me what your family consisted of?
- There were a mother and father, and I
- had one sister, who was eight years younger than myself.
- I was eight years an only child, a spoiled child.
- What was your mother and father's name?
- Mali and Eli Yitzhak.
- And the last name was Patashnik.
- And your sister's name?
- My sister's name was Sarah.
- And she was only four, I think, when she was killed.
- If I wouldn't have a picture, I wouldn't really know her.
- You were eight years older than her?
- Yes.
- I was 12, and she was 4 when the war broke out.
- See, the Germans took over my part of Europe in 1941.
- The Russians came in in '39, stayed for two years, when
- the war broke out.
- And then they left, and the Germans took over.
- And in 1942, I left my home.
- We were in the ghetto just for three weeks.
- And they liquidated the ghetto.
- And luckily, my mother, and my sister, and I ran away.
- And we were living-- we were going
- from farm to farm, people that we knew from before the war.
- Well, we'll get to that part about what
- happened during the war.
- But before we do that, I would just
- like to get a little bit more information.
- About my life.
- About your life before the war.
- OK.
- sure.
- OK, first let me just ask you, what did your parents do?
- And would you pronounce that for me again--
- Oh, this town, Podberezhe.
- It's not on the map.
- Podberezhe.
- I don't think it's on the map.
- My kids always ask me about it.
- Podberezhe.
- Podberezhe.
- OK.
- It's a little town.
- It's a town right near the little farm
- where the Polish president was born, Pilsudski.
- There was all farms around it.
- We were just a little town.
- So it was a farm--
- All around was farms.
- I mean we were a city, a little city,
- with a lot of grocery stores.
- And my parents had a grocery store.
- My mother had a grocery store.
- My father was always involved with orchards and orchards
- of fruits.
- He used to sell fruits with a big quantity,
- with a trainload to the big cities.
- He owned orchards.
- And they used to pick apples, and pick all that-- pears,
- and all the other fruits.
- And that was his line.
- He had very little to do with the grocery.
- We had a grocery right in our house, one room was the store.
- Did the orchard also--
- the fruit from the orchard go into the grocery also?
- Once in a while, not too much, no.
- In Poland, we used to sell apples
- in the winter, frozen apples.
- Frozen?
- Yeah, they used to freeze, and they used to sell them.
- They were very delicious.
- Was it like a treat?
- Very, it's like a baked apple, very tasty, yeah.
- OK, you say that you lived in the house with your father,
- and mother, and your sister, who was born eight years later.
- Did you have any grandparents at the time?
- Yes, I had my father's mother and father.
- And my mother only had a father.
- Her mother died before she was married.
- But he remarried.
- I had a step grandmother.
- But my mother's father was the most dearest little grandfather
- I ever had, with a white beard.
- And they also lived in--
- They all lived in our town, yeah.
- In your town.
- In fact, when the war broke out, we were all placed in a ghetto.
- And my father's parents lived in the street
- where the ghetto was formed.
- There were two streets.
- And we all had to-- everybody looks for a relative,
- so we moved in with my grandparents, six of us.
- I mean, plus the other son, and the child,
- and there was quite a few of us.
- Did you did you grow up--
- you said you grew up in a small--
- was it a town, or a city, or a village?
- No, it was a town.
- It was a town.
- A small town?
- Yeah, a very small town.
- And it was mostly farms?
- Well, farms around us.
- In our town, we had a lot of woods, pine woods.
- And people used to come from the big cities for their vacation.
- There was a resort place with a lot of hotels
- Oh, really?
- And we used to cater.
- My mother used to bring every morning--
- I used to carry hot bagels to the hotels and rolls.
- And people come from Warsaw and from Lódz,
- because it was all for their health.
- They used to call it a pensionnat,
- where they used to go for their health mostly.
- Here, you go on vacation to have a good time,
- but they came for the health.
- Because they needed to get away from the cities.
- How would you describe your family
- in terms of religiousness?
- How would you--
- Very traditional.
- My mother didn't wear a sheitel.
- My father went to shul every morning and every night.
- So would you say you were Orthodox?
- Oh, yeah.
- I think in my town, every Jew was Orthodox.
- There was no other religion.
- We didn't know that anything else existed.
- But like in the United States, people are Jewish,
- but they aren't necessarily religious.
- Yeah, but in our hometown, that I can remember--
- I was-- well, when the war broke out,
- I don't think anybody was anything, but Orthodox.
- A lot of them maybe didn't believe in nothing.
- There was a lot of maybe younger people.
- And my parents were very young.
- My mother was only 34 when she was killed.
- 34?
- Both of them.
- My parents were both the same age.
- My father was killed immediately, in 1941.
- And my mother was killed a year later.
- In your village, what percentage of people
- would you say were Jewish?
- Do you have any idea?
- Yes, we know.
- I know the statistic.
- After the war, they told us.
- There was 800 Jews in our town.
- And how many people were in the town?
- And when the war was over, 80 survived.
- 800 Jews out of how many?
- Oh, I really don't know.
- I couldn't tell you.
- But it was quite a few Jews for that little shtetl.
- They called it the shtetl.
- And 80 survived.
- After the war, when I came from the war,
- right after the war was over in 1940-- at the end of '44,
- the Russians took over our town.
- And out of the 80, I think, I could say at least 20
- died right after the war, from typhoid, and from overeating,
- and a lot of them got killed back going back to the farms
- to collect things.
- I was, fortunately, very lucky.
- I still stayed three months on the farm
- after the war was over, because I had no place to go.
- And they were very good to me, and they wanted me to stay.
- But all the Jews that were in town that survived
- said, how can you stay on a farm?
- They're still killing Jews.
- I said, where am I going to go?
- Nobody asked me to-- invited me to stay with them.
- But then I did find somebody.
- I'll tell you as you asked me questions,
- that told me to come back to the city, and I never went back.
- So how about educational wise?
- You were 12 years old when the war broke out.
- How old were you when you started school?
- Six.
- And I went to Hebrew school.
- My parents wouldn't have me go to a public school which
- Polish kids.
- We had a public school, where the Jewish kids could go.
- And they weren't treated too nice.
- But if you had no choice, that's where you went.
- But my parents paid, because even in Poland,
- for Hebrew school, you paid.
- And I went to a Tarbut.
- They called it a Tarbut school.
- And in fact, it was such a strict Tarbut--
- it's a Hebrew word.
- Does it mean [? produce ?] or something?
- It's a Hebrew school, but it's not--
- it's not strict-- well, we had a rabbi there
- that used to teach us the Tanakh, you know, Chumash,
- but that wasn't that we learned just religion.
- Was it a girl's school or girl and boy?
- No, girl and boy.
- And it was privately paid.
- And they taught us Polish in there.
- We learned arithmetic, and history,
- and geography-- a regular school.
- And, of course, once a day we had
- Chumash or Tanakh, which I really didn't like,
- but I had to do it.
- And, in fact, we couldn't speak Jewish.
- We had to speak Hebrew only.
- If you spoke Jewish-- if they caught you,
- they used to give you a black mark.
- Really?
- Yeah, and if you had a lot of them,
- they called your mother in, or your father, or whatever.
- It was mostly the mother.
- The father never had time to come.
- What was your level--
- in terms of your family, in terms
- of the socioeconomic status?
- We were called middle class.
- Because my parents were-- for that town that we lived in,
- we had our own house, which had no water.
- We had electricity.
- We had to go get water from a well.
- And my father always--
- they dressed pretty well.
- We ate good.
- I mean, in Europe, if you had chicken once a week
- and beef once a week, it was eating good.
- Because meat wasn't a big deal.
- You ate dairy mostly for dinner and fish.
- Was dinner the afternoon meal, the big meal of the day?
- The big meal was in the afternoon.
- Because especially if somebody like my father, who
- had his own business, so he was home--
- when he wanted to come for dinner,
- he could come home for dinner.
- But you always ate, like for supper, dairy, or eggs,
- or nothing heavy.
- It doesn't mean there weren't fat people,
- but my parents weren't fat.
- There was no--
- I didn't eat nothing.
- I lived on candy.
- And I was just--
- the time I became--
- I really filled out was the war, eating
- all that bread and potatoes on the farm, and a lot of pork,
- and all that stuff.
- But I was always--
- Do you remember-- now you said you
- were 12 when the war broke out, but do you remember at all,
- up until that point, encountering
- any anti-Semitic experiences?
- Yes, I had a personal experience.
- I must have been not more than eight or nine years old.
- And I was very dramatic in school.
- I was in every play.
- And I was always singing.
- And I was in a play.
- And I played-- I had to dance a Hasidic dance.
- And I had to wear a navy suit.
- And I had to have the tails like.
- And the only suits that you could get
- was from the boys that went to a high school,
- private high school.
- They had those navy suits with the double-breasted gold
- buttons.
- And I needed a suit like that from one of my cousins,
- who lived in a different street.
- I had to go get that suit.
- And I was walking, and it was Sunday.
- And we had, like in the streets-- in the main street--
- we lived on a side street.
- On the main street had like a--
- here they call it like a drugstore,
- but you had ice cream there, and you
- could have coffee there and a piece of cake.
- And I was walking to get to my cousin's house.
- And a Polish little boy, my age, had his dog with him.
- And he told the dog to jump on me.
- And the dog jumped me.
- And my father had to be sitting in that drugstore having
- coffee, or tea, or whatever.
- And he saw it.
- And being my father, he grabbed that Polish kid,
- and he was ready to kill him.
- He really hit him.
- Well, the next day, the police came,
- and they closed our store.
- And they were going to do anything they could to us.
- And we had to--
- on our knees, beg to forgive.
- That he didn't mean it.
- That the dog could have bit me and could have killed me.
- So you're saying that because your father protected me.
- Because my father protected me, and because he
- hit a Polish kid--
- if he would have hit a Jewish kid, nobody would say anything.
- He didn't hit him to kill him.
- He just slapped him or something.
- But I remember as a child, the Polish kids hated us.
- I mean, I can't say all bad about the Polish people,
- because the Polish people did save my life.
- It was a farmer-- like you know, there's
- good and bad in everybody.
- But as a child, I remember that the anti-Semitism was so big.
- Those words-- they always called us Jew.
- I mean, in Polish, Jew, it sounds even worse than Jew.
- Zyd or something?
- Zyd.
- And they just--
- Like a curse word of sorts.
- Yeah.
- In a way, I hated Hebrew, school,
- because I didn't like the rabbis,
- with the Chumash with this.
- But in a way, it was so much pleasant,
- not to be-- because in the public schools,
- they always used to beat up the Jewish kids.
- Did you have any Polish friends?
- Did you have any kids--
- Not really.
- I mean, our neighbors were Polish, in the backyard.
- Like, they lived in one of my aunt's houses.
- And they were pretty nice.
- But they were-- like if Christmas came,
- we were dying to see the tree.
- And my mother used to send over some apples or something.
- And so they did such a big favor,
- just to come in to see the tree.
- But we were scared.
- Like the Polish kids were taught that the Jews put their blood
- in the matzah.
- That's how we were scared of their Christmas.
- Were you talking about--
- The Christians-- the Catholics.
- Poland taught children that--
- Oh, yes.
- I mean that the Jews--
- That would you take the blood of what-- non-Jews?
- No, the Jesus's blood was put in the matzah.
- I mean, I'm sure a lot of kids in this country heard about it.
- And I was a child, but I know that I was associating mostly
- with Jewish kids.
- So you were born in 1929.
- Yeah.
- And the war broke out--
- In 19--
- '39.
- '39.
- Well, the Russians came in--
- In 1939, the Russians came in.
- Where?
- And to me, as a child--
- to my hometown-- I didn't feel any war.
- It was beautiful.
- I didn't have to go to Hebrew school.
- September?
- I don't remember what month.
- The war broke out in June, I remember, in Poland.
- It was June, because we were standing outside and listening
- to the radio, speakers were-- certain buildings had them.
- I don't remember what month the Russians came in.
- I know it wasn't winter.
- So it must have been like the war broke out in June.
- Maybe that year, they came in, to my hometown.
- They came in, not to Warsaw.
- That's where the Germans--
- And Germany hadn't invaded Poland?
- Not yet.
- They invaded Poland, not my town.
- The Russians came.
- Why did Russia invade your town if Germans weren't there?
- I cannot understand it why.
- I just know that-- my husband comes from Warsaw,
- and they had--
- the Germans were there in 1939.
- And then in my town, they didn't get till '41.
- We had the Russians for two years.
- And the Russians, in those days, to the Jews,
- were pretty good, especially to a kid like me.
- I was so glad I didn't have to go to Hebrew school.
- And I was taking Russian lessons.
- And there was dancing, and music.
- So you were like about 10 years old.
- Yeah, I was 10 years old.
- And then, when the war broke out,
- I was 12 years old, when the Germans came in my town.
- In 1941.
- Really, they chased them right out.
- The Russians went back, and the Germans came in.
- And that's where our troubles really started.
- And the Germans were there until '45?
- In my hometown-- well, I left in '42 to the farm,
- but they were there all the time, till the war was over.
- So the war broke out around June, you say, of 1939.
- Yeah.
- As the war became closer and closer,
- was there any talk about war in your hometown?
- Yes.
- Oh, yes, there was talk about war.
- And there was talk about the cities,
- that this and this happened.
- The cities where the Germans took over,
- and they liquidated Jewish towns, and they made ghettos.
- But nobody believed nothing.
- Well, before the war even actually started,
- were your family thinking of possibly leaving Poland?
- Or were there any ever-- was there ever any talk of--
- No, as I remember, my parents didn't.
- See, my father's family--
- my grandfather's whole family live right here, in Boston,
- in America.
- His eight brothers and sisters-- see,
- I think he had five sisters and three brothers,
- and he was the only one left.
- And they were the only ones that kept my grandfather going.
- They sent the money from America.
- And they really were wonderful to him.
- And they wanted them to come.
- And my father, in those days, had a single brother,
- who was a schoolteacher.
- And he had his papers to go.
- And he kept delaying it, and delaying it.
- I think if not the war, we were so settled in our lives,
- we didn't want to go any place.
- Were very happy--
- You were content.
- --where we were.
- We were very content--
- very.
- So you were basically going to school every day.
- And that was what your life was at the time.
- Yeah, from the year I was six years old
- and the war broke out.
- When the war broke out, in 1939, I
- was just going to go to a high school, which we didn't have.
- I had to go to the big city, to Vilna, where my aunt lived.
- And I was going to live with her.
- And that was a big deal for me.
- Didn't the war break out in September of 1939?
- You mean in Poland?
- Yeah.
- I thought it was June.
- I don't remember exactly.
- I don't remember either.
- Well, you could look this up.
- Because I really don't remember.
- So you were 10 years old when the war broke.
- When the war broke out, yeah.
- And do you remember how the war--
- first word about the war reached you?
- I mean--
- Well, they told us that they're bombing.
- Ha the war started before Russia came into your village?
- See, when the Russians came into our village,
- they just came in with the tanks and with military.
- It looked like a parade coming in.
- There was no bombs.
- We heard bombs-- like when I was on the farm already,
- we could hear bombing in the big cities.
- Like you could hear the bombings.
- And we could hear the planes going over, flying over us.
- See them even, at night.
- And they used to light up the farms at night, the reflectors.
- But, well, it came to a point in the war,
- when I was on the farm, that I wished
- a bomb should get me already.
- You hide, and hide, and hide, and you get tired of it.
- But I didn't have any.
- I think one thing I would like to do is talk about what--
- really, the war breaking out, and then what
- happened at that point, when the war broke out.
- If you can try to tell the story in sort of chronological order.
- I mean, the Russians came into your city.
- Yeah, the Russians came in, and they took over our city.
- And they made us feel very comfortable and very good.
- Of course, we were called capitalists to the Russians.
- So my father had to give up his orchards and his things,
- whatever he had.
- My mother's grocery wasn't that capitalistic looking.
- It was a little store, a hole in the wall.
- So they let her run it.
- And in the war was mostly trade business anyway.
- The farmers used to come and bring us eggs,
- and we gave them flour, and sugar.
- And it was mostly trading.
- And they let us go-- they opened up-- they made the Hebrew
- school into a public school.
- And they taught Russian, of course.
- So it became part of Russia.
- Like Russia, you know.
- And the borders opened up.
- Was it Russia?
- No, Poland was-- it was still Poland,
- but they were governing over the Poles.
- There were Polish-- how do you say that word?
- The Polish people were running it under the Russian rules.
- They didn't do nothing on their own.
- And that happened only for two years.
- And then when the Germans took over the whole part of Poland,
- they started chasing them out.
- And they went back.
- And the Germans just occupied our town.
- And one nice day, in the morning,
- they told us we have to move out.
- And we just have to-- they made a ghetto.
- And that's when we moved in with our grandparents.
- And we were in the ghetto only three weeks,
- and they liquidated.
- Let me ask you, when the Russians were there,
- they were there for two years, so how did you spend those two
- years, you and your family?
- I mean, did you continue-- you continued in school?
- I kept going to school.
- But it was--
- It was a public school.
- They didn't even let us learn Jewish, just Russian, Polish.
- We had Polish one hour, whatever, and arithmetic.
- And mostly about Russian history.
- And they wanted to make us into a Communist party.
- Us kids were to dress wearing uniforms and all that thing.
- And we had Joseph Stalin and Lenin
- all over the school, plastered.
- And we had to sing to them.
- We used to make jokes, and it was dangerous.
- Because even kids couldn't make jokes about them.
- Did you feel afraid?
- No, not at all.
- Not then at all.
- We didn't even think what fear is until the Germans came in.
- So they were sort of--
- I mean, they weren't hard to you.
- No, they weren't really.
- See, I come from a town that was--
- I think the only two rich people were
- the doctor and the druggist.
- There was nobody that was a capitalist.
- We already--
- Most of you were working class.
- Working class, and my parents were called the middle class,
- because we owned a house.
- We didn't own anything else.
- We had a cow-- one cow, and a horse, and stuff like that.
- So when the Russians came, you had to give up anything
- that you owned?
- They didn't have nothing to take from us.
- My father just had to give up-- he couldn't be a businessman
- anymore.
- If he did anything, it was like in a cooperative business.
- He couldn't be a private business.
- OK.
- So you lived there for two years.
- Yeah.
- And you continued going to school.
- Yeah.
- And how about religious wise, what happened?
- They didn't stop them to go to shul
- we had our little shul still.
- And my father went to shul.
- And the holidays were observed, like before.
- And the kids enjoyed it more, I think.
- It was freedom for the kids.
- As a kid, that's what I remember.
- I don't know how my parents felt about it,
- but they didn't discuss it with me.
- Were there any changes in your house at all
- when the Russians came in?
- Could you feel anything?
- Life just sort of went on as usual.
- Went on as usual, yeah.
- So when the Russians were there, you don't recall--
- well, you went to a different school as a result.
- I went to the same school, but there
- was no more religious school.
- They took over.
- Did Poles go to that school too?
- No.
- So it continued to be only Jews.
- It was Jewish kids, but they were teaching us Russian--
- mostly Russian.
- And in your home life, and social life,
- and religious life, nothing changed.
- Not to my knowledge.
- Maybe for my parents, it was harder.
- But as a kid, I don't remember anything
- that happened to me while the Russians were there.
- I just remember there were dances all the time and music.
- And we enjoyed.
- Did you have any idea what was going on outside your village,
- or outside your town, in terms of--
- When the Russians took over?
- You knew that Germans--
- We knew that the Germans are taking over the world,
- that the parents were talking.
- But even my parents, I think, in Europe,
- didn't believe anything like this is really
- humanly possible.
- We heard stories.
- Like a few months before they liquidated our ghetto,
- 50 kilometers--
- I don't know how many miles that is--
- a ghetto was liquidated, and maybe five people ran away.
- And they came to our town at night,
- and they begged us to leave while we can get out.
- That it happened, they killed everybody.
- We didn't believe them.
- We didn't run until the Germans actually closed in our ghetto,
- and they gave us like an hour we could get out, whoever could.
- They didn't stop-- they let us run
- because they knew they were going to get us in the end.
- They got almost everybody-- my mother, and my sister,
- and myself were the lucky ones.
- I mean, they weren't lucky, because they were killed later.
- But we walked out.
- We just walked out.
- And we walked right into a farm.
- It was like five miles, you walked to a farm.
- Let me ask you, so the Russians were there until till--
- Till '41.
- Do you remember around what month?
- The month, I don't remember.
- Do you remember what time of year it was?
- Because I remember when our ghetto was liquidated,
- it was Yom Kippur night.
- And you were in the ghetto for three weeks?
- Three weeks.
- So it must have been September.
- It must have been like August or September--
- September.
- --when the Germans came.
- Yeah, because I remember in the morning, when we got up,
- we were hiding in a bath house, and it
- was frost in the morning.
- It was ice.
- It was very cold.
- And it was Yom Kippur the next day.
- And the woman brought food, and my mother wouldn't eat.
- I remember that.
- I ate.
- She didn't eat.
- So it was around September of 1941,
- the Germans invaded your town.
- Yeah.
- And the Russians left.
- They were gone.
- They killed a lot of them.
- They'd throw them off the bridges.
- Whoever, when they-- a lot of them
- didn't want to leave their offices.
- They were big shots.
- So they were mostly shot.
- Right in the offices, they shot them.
- And how did everyone in your town react?
- What happened?
- Well, the people panicked.
- And they all got together.
- And everybody became very close.
- And, of course, when they threw us into two streets together,
- all 800 people, so you couldn't be any closer.
- So everybody had a relative someplace.
- And a lot of people ran, see.
- Like young people-- I mean teenage people,
- who had a chance, they ran with the Russians.
- I see, they left with the Russians.
- They ran with the Russians.
- And they went back to Russia?
- They went way into Russia.
- A lot of them had relatives.
- See, my mother had a sister in Moscow, who
- went in the First World War.
- She's there with her family.
- I don't know if she's still alive, but her kids are.
- I keep in touch with my aunt from Israel.
- And they tell me-- we used to have letters.
- I don't know if she's still living.
- She married a Cossack in the First World War.
- And she just ran off with him.
- And a lot of people were-- like my aunt's children,
- who are alive today, two of them-- she had eight children.
- And they survived in Russia.
- I mean, they had it very tough, but they survived.
- So a lot of people then ran with the Russians.
- Yes, a lot of Jewish people.
- Did Germans kill Jews, the people in your town too,
- when they invaded?
- When they invaded, they picked out certain families
- immediately.
- And it so happened that in our hometown, a lot of people
- had the same names.
- They had no relations.
- My father, by the Russians was-- by the Germans
- was known as that he had money.
- And I don't know, whatever.
- And we were on the list that night.
- And somehow, we had a feeling not to sleep in our house.
- We just slept in the next house.
- List of people to be killed?
- To be killed-- they took us, like 10, 12 families
- a night, middle of the night, and they just killed them.
- Shot them?
- Shot them.
- In the middle of the town?
- No, they had woods.
- We had a lot of woods around our way.
- In fact, I went to see my father's grave.
- My father wasn't killed then.
- My father was killed when they made the ghetto.
- The night they liquidated the ghetto,
- the next morning my father was killed.
- He hid himself with another few people, and they found him.
- But that night-- every night, a few families were disappearing.
- And was it all done secretly so that Germans
- weren't openly admitting that they were killing these people.
- No, everything was-- they were so nice.
- In fact, they took-- whoever had a pretty decent home,
- they used to have the German officers live in our homes.
- So Germans came in and took over, right?
- Now, when the Germans came in, how
- did your life change for you?
- Immediately, no more school.
- I mean, it was vacation time anyways when the war broke out.
- And when the Germans took over, there was no more school.
- When the Russians left, school for me was over.
- And we were in the ghetto.
- OK, so the Germans came in, and they took over the town.
- And they told everyone that they had to move?
- I mean, how did the ghetto form?
- How did they tell you?
- They just came, and they said, you all
- have to be in this zone in so many hours
- on this and this street.
- You take what you can.
- Did they send messages?
- No, I think they just came from house to house,
- or they sent like messengers, and to let
- you know that this and this hour,
- you have to be out from that house.
- And go--
- Certain houses were moved sooner.
- Like if they were nicer houses, they
- needed them for their soldiers or for their officers,
- so they moved them out sooner.
- How quickly did this happen from the time they entered?
- Oh, they were, I think, in our town maybe a month.
- And in that month, they were moving us out.
- Did your town have a Judenrat or anything?
- Yes, we had a Judenrat.
- And that's how we found out they're
- going to liquidate the ghetto.
- Because the Judenrat was notified that day.
- In the ghetto, there were two streets of the ghetto.
- And the Judenrat was notified that no more killing Jews.
- They should hang up posters.
- See, they didn't want a panic.
- They did it with every town.
- They hung out posters in the streets.
- No more killing Jews.
- We can go out shopping, free.
- We don't have to wear the latta and everything is going--
- and right away-- but the master of the Judenrat-- for money
- and for things, you could buy off the Germans too.
- Somebody told him that tonight they're
- going to liquidate the ghetto.
- And it was Yom Kippur Eve.
- And everybody was cooking, and baking, whatever.
- My father used to work on the railroad for the Germans.
- They used to give him this fish.
- And my mother used to soak it for days
- and then make fish balls from it.
- And everybody was cooking.
- And the man that was the president of the Judenrat, him,
- and his sister, and his wife, and his kids,
- they were all living in the same house.
- And they were cooking.
- And all of a sudden, they're packing up,
- and they're walking out.
- And that's what started the panic.
- They wouldn't tell us why they were walking out.
- But it was enough for us to know.
- And that's when my father said, we should go.
- And the men will get out later.
- But they never got out-- that night.
- So this was in the ghetto, itself.
- This was in the ghetto-- three weeks
- after we were in the ghetto.
- The Judenrat was formed in the ghetto.
- In the ghetto, yeah.
- Could you tell me a little bit about how
- the ghetto was formed?
- Like, I know the Germans sent out messages or whatever.
- That we have to move in, and if we
- have relatives in those streets, we
- can move in with the relatives.
- And I remember--
- So there were 800 people living in a radius
- of about two blocks?
- Two blocks, two streets.
- I mean, long streets.
- And like, in my grandmother's house,
- we consisted of one bedroom, a living room, dining
- room-- one-- it's a combination, and a little kitchen
- so my grandparents were living there,
- my parents, and my sister and I, was six.
- And my aunt's little girl, who survived
- from another ghetto, that somebody
- brought her over with my aunt.
- Her husband was killed.
- It was, I think, 10 of us living in this--
- those facilities.
- And how was the Judenrat formed, for example?
- Did people get together?
- I don't remember that at all.
- What happened-- so you were there
- for three weeks in the ghetto, right?
- Yeah.
- What did you do--
- I mean, what was life like-- food, and schooling,
- and religion?
- They let us out.
- We had to wear the latta, the yellow latta.
- You had to wear the yellow star.
- Yeah, star.
- That started once you moved into the ghetto?
- We had to wear it immediately.
- If I recollect, I think we had to wear the star before we even
- went into the ghetto.
- Because I remember we couldn't walk on the sidewalk.
- The Jews couldn't walk on the sidewalk.
- We had to walk on the street.
- And that's when the Polish kids were after us.
- They were pushing us off and spitting at us.
- Kids that went were our neighbors.
- That was the rule, Jews couldn't walk on the sidewalk,
- and Jews had to wear the yellow star.
- And in the ghetto, they used to let us out.
- There was a big market.
- Every week was a market, where the farmers
- used to bring the food.
- So they let us out.
- And we had so much time to be in that market and then go back.
- Because there was always a guard in front of the ghetto.
- But they weren't really that strict.
- Actually, if you could-- if you knew--
- if you would be so scared, and knew really
- what's going to happen to you, you
- could have walked out a hundred times, but nobody believed.
- We were so content.
- We're going to the shopping market,
- and come back, and go on with our lives.
- I mean, as a child, what I--
- What did you think was happening?
- I mean, did you wonder?
- Nothing.
- As a child, I didn't think of nothing.
- Did you think it was unusual?
- You just heard about people getting killed.
- And you just said, nobody's going to kill me.
- But you knew that as a Jew that you were being singled out.
- Oh, that we're being singled out,
- and were being punished for something.
- I didn't know why they were doing this to us.
- But there was a latta, and where they're going to the market,
- and with a police escort all the time, watching us.
- Did you feel any sort of shame about being Jewish?
- Because you were being so-- as a kid,
- it would be natural to feel that way.
- I don't think there was any shame.
- I just hated the Polish people so much,
- the way they treated us.
- Because it wasn't the Germans that were doing it.
- It's our neighbors.
- They took over.
- They gave them the-- they became the police.
- They were escorting us.
- OK, so there were about 800 of you in the ghetto,
- and you were all squeezed in pretty tight.
- And you said you would go to the market once a week for food.
- Yeah.
- You had money to do this?
- They gave us-- well, my father worked on the railroad
- for the Germans.
- And they were getting paid with certain scripts,
- certain monies.
- And we could spend it.
- And see, well, we had a grocery store.
- When we came to the ghetto, we stored away--
- we hid so much flour and sugar.
- And we brought enough food with us,
- we could have lived maybe a year,
- not with everything that you needed,
- but with enough food that we wouldn't have starved to death.
- Even without my father working, with the rations
- that the Germans used to give us, we could really survive.
- Was enough flour-- I remember for Yom Kippur, for the fast,
- my mother was baking challah and all that stuff.
- She was baking for the neighbors.
- So the men that were living in the ghetto worked.
- Were working.
- They worked outside the ghetto.
- Yeah, they used to all work on the railroad.
- And they got paid with food and maybe some money.
- I really don't remember that.
- But I know my father used to bring fish,
- and salt, and soap, and all that kind of stuff.
- And then quite a few Polish people
- used to meet us outside the ghetto.
- Like if they had a farm that used to come before--
- there was so many different occasions that Polish people--
- some were rotten, were ready to kill you,
- and some were helping you.
- I mean, I went through that exact experience.
- Because I was saved by the Polish.
- If not for that Polish farmer, that family,
- I wouldn't have been here today.
- They took a risk.
- Because my mother was hidden on a farm with my sister.
- And the farmer was killed.
- There were five Jewish women with children,
- and a Polish woman from our little town saw them.
- One night, they were going to bathe,
- and she just called the police the next day.
- And they were all shot.
- And they even shot the farmer.
- And they liquidated his farm.
- So the farmers took big risks too.
- They took risks.
- And the people that saved my life, she had four sons.
- And they hated my guts.
- But she was the mother, and she said, I'll stay.
- And I worked.
- I mean, they didn't keep me there for nothing.
- I worked.
- We'll get to that in a little bit.
- I just want to find out a little bit more about the ghetto.
- Yeah.
- So you had no schooling there.
- No.
- And how about religious practice?
- Living on the farm-- oh, in the ghetto-- nothing.
- No religion.
- We used to get together-- the men used to gather,
- like the minyan at night.
- Nobody even knew, in our house, to come pray.
- To your knowledge, did any resistance
- go on at all in the ghetto?
- No.
- Did people think about planning?
- I don't think they had enough time in the three weeks
- to form anything.
- Because we didn't think it's going to last.
- I mean, we didn't-- we lived with a belief that it's going
- to get better.
- And the Germans, every morning--
- That it would pass.
- Yes.
- And every morning, you had a flyer, some papers,
- something was always out that things
- are going to get wonderful, and not to worry.
- So you thought you it was going to get
- better because the Germans were going to get nicer?
- Or because Americans were going to come in?
- Or the Americans weren't in the war yet.
- No, no.
- At my age-- I don't know what my parents thought,
- but I didn't know about Americans.
- I just thought that this will just pass.
- But that Germany.
- Things will be like they were.
- That Germany would still be there, but that it would be--
- But they'll be nice to us.
- Because they kept promising us that someday
- they'll be nice to us.
- That things are going to get better.
- Right.
- And so the Judenrat was there.
- And how was that formed?
- Was it voted who would be the head of the Judenrat?
- I have no idea.
- I'm sure they did it between themselves.
- Somebody in the town, who was more known
- and knew more about things, and they just picked him.
- I remember that man.
- I think he survived the war.
- And he's in Israel maybe.
- I don't know if he's still living, because he
- was an old man there.
- So what was a day--
- I mean, you only spent three weeks in the ghetto.
- Yeah.
- What was a day like for you, a typical day?
- For me, it was a typical day.
- I played with my friends.
- And we were all so close together, thrown together.
- And that's all.
- And the women were cooking and just sitting around.
- There was nothing.
- And you didn't think it's going to get worse.
- You hoped it's going to get better.
- That will one day, we'll just move out of there.
- And my grandparents-- these were my father's parents,
- who were really never getting along
- with my mother and my father, they became very close.
- Because they were older, and my mother was taking care of them.
- In times of suffering too, all those--
- When you're thrown together like this,
- you have to make the best of it.
- So that went on for three weeks.
- Yeah.
- And then would you describe how the ghetto was liquidated?
- What happened?
- They just gave them an order to liquidate the ghetto tonight.
- Gave who an order?
- Somebody gave the police--
- the police--
- The German police or Polish police.
- Our ghettos were policed, by Polish police.
- And they had an order to liquidate tonight
- the ghetto, to put them all on horses and buggies,
- bring them to the shul.
- And the next day, we'll transport them all to the-- it
- was special woods in a different town, where
- they were killing them all.
- In the woods?
- Yeah, it was a special woods.
- There was a different town, called [PLACE NAME]..
- And they took them on a lot of horses and--
- not carriages, those big wagons.
- Like you see the wagons now the cowboys have, the wagons.
- They weren't covered.
- They were open.
- And, of course, when they had them in shul--
- see, every shul had a rabbi and a shamash.
- That shamash knew about bad things
- that were happening in different towns.
- He built a indoor--
- in the wall, he built like a hideaway place.
- And he told a few people there's enough room.
- And he had bread in there and water.
- And that's where my father, and the rabbi, and his wife,
- and his daughter.
- And they made a mistake by letting
- in a woman with a child.
- And when they came in the next morning to liquidate it,
- to take him on those horses, the child cried.
- And they found the wall.
- And they took them.
- And, in fact, my girlfriend, the rabbi's daughter,
- is in Israel today.
- See, every town had a rabbi come in like for a couple of years.
- And they were very new in town.
- And nobody knew them.
- And that girl had yellow hair, yellow pigtails.
- She was very light and blonde.
- And nobody knew her.
- Like, my family, everybody knew.
- Because we lived all our lives in that town.
- And all the Polish people knew us.
- But nobody knew her.
- And when they took them to be killed, she just ran.
- And she saw-- she said, when she turned,
- she saw my father and her father, they were all shot.
- They put him right in the graves.
- And they killed him in the graves.
- And she ran.
- And she fell in into one of the graves.
- And they thought she's dead.
- And she lied there till she heard
- quiet and nobody was there.
- She just walked through the town the next day,
- straight through, in broad daylight.
- And she walked to a different farm.
- And she told them she ran away from a bombed city.
- She's a Polish girl.
- And a Polish family took her in.
- She worked on the farm.
- And then when the war was over, she's in Israel.
- In fact, she was here in New York once.
- I talked to her, but I didn't see her.
- But I saw her after the war once in my home town.
- In fact, she took me to the graves.
- We walked, and then we stood there for an hour.
- And we ran, both of us, so fast.
- It was in 1945, before I came to this part of Poland.
- When the Polish police got orders for the ghetto
- to be liquidated, so they started rounding--
- how did feel about it?
- They had orders not to shoot.
- They had orders just to keep everybody
- in till the horses will come.
- They're going to put them on the horses.
- So a lot of people paid money, and they let you out.
- My mother and my sister--
- Did people know where anyone was going?
- Did they know what was happening?
- Well, every Jew in a little town knew a farmer someplace.
- And the farms were all around us.
- Especially most older Jews in the town had little stores.
- And everybody used to buy from us or trade.
- So we all had friends.
- Some of them were friends, and some of them did it for money.
- And 90 percent--
- What did the Jews think were happening when the ghetto was
- being liquidated?
- Where did they think they would go?
- They knew they were going to get killed.
- They did?
- Oh, yes.
- Then they knew they were going to get killed.
- Because already the few that ran away from different towns,
- and they told us.
- But we couldn't get out before.
- But the night when they announced the day
- they're going to liquidate the ghetto, whoever could run, ran.
- A lot of them were killed later, like the next day.
- But we were on a farm.
- What plans did your family make?
- Did you decide?
- My father said-- because we knew all those farmers,
- my father said to my mother, get dressed.
- I remember, we dressed with two, three dresses,
- and extra stockings, and extra coats.
- And we packed food with us.
- And we walked.
- We just walked right out.
- And we walked like I don't know how many kilometers
- to the farm.
- And nobody stopped us.
- So all of you.
- And my father said he's not going,
- just my mother, my sister, and myself.
- My father said--
- To the farm?
- Yeah.
- Of this neighbor that you knew?
- Of a farmer that we knew, that we hoped
- that won't throw us out.
- But when he found out the next morning-- so
- he let us sleep over in a barn.
- The next morning, we sent him--
- because we could hear all night screaming.
- Because they were starting to kill and to shoot.
- Because people were panicking.
- So we sent him to town.
- And he went to town.
- And he said, the ghetto-- the whole streets
- are empty and barricaded.
- There's not a soul there.
- So he got scared.
- And he told us we have to go.
- I said, where are we going to go?
- He says, get out.
- Do you remember his name?
- The Polish--
- The farmer.
- I don't remember, no.
- I remember the family that saved my life, their name.
- Why didn't your father come with you?
- He figured he'll get out.
- He said it's harder for women.
- He figured he'll always get out.
- It's easier for men.
- But what was the point of staying on?
- Well, my grandparents were there.
- And there was another child--
- his sister's little girl was with him.
- And he figured he'll help them.
- And what happened to them?
- They were taken to that shul.
- And they were all killed.
- They were taken to the shul, and then put into the--
- The next day--
- --in the wagons.
- In the wagons, and the next day--
- Taken to the wood.
- --take them to the woods.
- And that's where they were-- the graves
- were all dug for them already.
- And would you now tell me, once again,
- how you heard your father died?
- Well, she actually saw him being killed.
- Who did?
- A girlfriend of mine from my school, who
- ran away from the dead place.
- She just was the lucky one to survive.
- In fact, I have a friend in California,
- she's a couple of years older than me,
- she was on that horse and wagon.
- And a policeman, a Polish policeman,
- who had an eye on her before-- she
- was a teenager in those days-- he took her off.
- And he figured he'll have her for himself.
- And I don't know what happened, but she's alive today.
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
- Well, so this friend of yours saw your father killed?
- Yeah.
- So he was--
- He was shot in 1942.
- And how was he shot?
- He was just shot in the grave.
- They put them all in the woods.
- They put them in the grave.
- And they were shot.
- And he was originally in that hiding place, right?
- Yeah, and he was the one with the rabbi and his family.
- I mean, they were all in the shul,
- but they were in that wall there, the double wall.
- And they thought they were secure.
- And they thought maybe the next day, they'll get out,
- and they'll run to a farm too.
- But they didn't make it.
- Because of the baby and the--
- Yeah.
- That's how my mother got killed, because of a child too.
- So this was now in October of 1941,
- that your father was pretty much killed right around then.
- Yeah.
- So you, and your mother, and your sister--
- so you were 12 years old then.
- And your sister was four.
- Yeah.
- And you went to--
- We went to the farm.
- And we stayed only overnight.
- And the next day, he told us to go.
- So we kept walking.
- And the Lithuanian and Polish police
- could spot a Jew a mile away.
- They just wanted to frighten us.
- So they started yelling halt, and [LITHUANIAN]..
- In Lithuanian, it's stop.
- So more they yelled, more we ran.
- But they didn't shoot us or nothing.
- And then a Polish farmer put us on a wagon,
- and he took us into a ghetto.
- See, there were other ghettos, still not liquidated.
- And we came in that night to the ghetto.
- Which ghetto?
- We came in a little town called Kiemelishki.
- It's maybe like 20 miles from our town.
- And we spent there, I think--
- I mean, I spent there--
- I was there like, I don't know, maybe a year.
- I think a year because I was very sick.
- My eyes-- I was going blind.
- And a Polish doctor said if I don't get to a hospital,
- I'll lose both eyes.
- And that's when I went through that thing.
- And he saved my eyes.
- They dressed me as a Polish girl.
- They gave me a name and a cross.
- Well, why don't you tell me this story.
- You were in Kiemelishki?
- Yeah.
- Were you in there with your mother?
- In a ghetto, with my mother and my sister.
- And your sister.
- Yeah, and with cousins.
- We moved into our house where we had cousins.
- Everybody had cousins in every town.
- It was my mother's family.
- So this was also a ghetto.
- And we were sleeping four in a bed.
- And it was filthy, dirty.
- And my eyes-- see, I got sick in my ghetto.
- I had like an eye infection.
- And when I ran away that night, instead
- of putting cold compresses, I found some dirty water.
- And that's when my eyes really got infected.
- The cold water helped the heat out,
- but my eyes were completely covered with pus.
- And when I came into the other ghetto,
- and I just couldn't open my eyes.
- The Polish farmer took you into that ghetto?
- That Polish farmer, a complete stranger,
- nothing to do with the house where we stayed,
- just somebody that we knew.
- He says he'll take a chance.
- He put us in sacks of potatoes, like.
- Covered us up and just--
- And he was doing this just--
- --walked in with us.
- --to help you.
- Yeah.
- Not for money or anything?
- No, we didn't have anything then to give him, nothing.
- So you were living in this ghetto.
- Yeah.
- And that's when my eyes were very bad.
- And the Polish doctor said to my mother,
- if she can just arrange enough money
- to get a sled-- it was winter already-- a sled.
- And they'll take me over a frozen lake to the big city
- of Vilna, to the biggest eye hospital,
- called [NON-ENGLISH]---- a very big hospital.
- And he says, maybe they'll save one eye.
- He says and don't be disappointed.
- She says, we want to save her life.
- And my mother sold her wedding ring, whatever she had.
- And whoever could help in the ghetto,
- and everybody knew I'll come back
- at least with one eye gone.
- And I spent 17 days in that hospital.
- My name was Christina Boroduvna I had a big cross.
- I didn't know anything about the religion.
- But every morning in the hospital,
- they used to kneel and pray.
- So I used to stay on my knees and count
- until everybody sit down.
- And I was there for-- it was a hospital.
- There were Russian prisoners there and Polish prisoners.
- And I could see in the room there
- were a lot of Jewish women, hiding like me.
- But I was a kid.
- And after 17 days, I had both eyes, no surgery.
- They did it with a ultra ray lights.
- I had abscesses on my pupils.
- And the doctor-- when they released me,
- the doctor said to my doctor-- because he
- came back with a horse and sled and picked me up, the doctor.
- That doctor, if he's anyplace alive, it's unbelievable.
- What was his name?
- I don't remember.
- Would you believe it, I don't remember.
- You were 12 years old at the time.
- I don't remember.
- But he had no children.
- And he told my mother--
- he says, anytime-- he says, if something happens to you,
- she'll be brought up like a doctor's daughter.
- She'll never lack of anything.
- We'll educate her, and don't worry.
- Because the thing I'm telling you now--
- when I came back-- when I left the hospital,
- the doctor said that I have-- the most important thing,
- I have to have cleanliness.
- Ad I come back to the ghetto.
- There's four of us in one bed--
- excuse me-- with lice, with fleas, with everything.
- And I have to put in that special salve in my eyes
- and drops.
- So my mother goes to the doctor, says, look,
- she's not going to last much longer if she doesn't
- have anything happen fast.
- Can't you take her at least for a week to your house?
- That's how much chutzpah and how much she wanted
- me to survive and to see.
- He says, I'll go home tonight-- and he lived like in a mansion.
- Not a farm, but in Europe they used to have--
- the rich Poles used to have homes.
- How did your mother meet him?
- They just sent us to the clinic, to the doctor.
- And he was the Polish doctor.
- And he told my mother--
- In the ghetto?
- Well, he was out of the ghetto, but we
- could go out of the ghetto to go to the doctor.
- For four months, my eyes were bandaged.
- My mother used to walk me like a dog to him.
- And he took me in.
- And the next day, he told my mother
- to meet us in a certain woods at night.
- I remember the moon was shining.
- And he took me in.
- And they gave me my own room, with the nightgowns.
- And everybody was going to tutor me.
- And I was there for 10 days.
- I thought I was in heaven again.
- I couldn't believe that that exists.
- And as a kid, I said--
- a mother would really die to live like this or her child.
- But as a child, you just--
- I wanted so much to survive, and to see, and to live like this.
- And I never dreamed that my mother
- would get killed or anything.
- And after 10 days, he knocked on my door one day,
- and he says he has something to tell me.
- And the tears were coming down his eyes.
- He says, I have to tell you, you have to go back to the ghetto.
- He says, they're going to come here,
- where somebody squealed that he's hiding Jews,
- and that he's hiding Polish officers that
- ran away from the war.
- And he says, you cannot stay.
- I said, where am I going to go?
- He says, your mother is still in the ghetto.
- He says, I'll walk you as far as I can,
- and then you're on your own.
- And I thought I'm going to die.
- And I walk into the ghetto--
- And when was this?
- That had to be--
- that all had to be in '42.
- Like, maybe-- it was cold.
- There wasn't snow, but it was like maybe
- November or December.
- It was very cold.
- You mean like the end--
- Either at the end of '42, or maybe it was '43 already.
- I don't--
- Wait one second.
- The ghetto-- the first ghetto was liquidated
- in Yom Kippur of '41.
- '41, yeah.
- And then you went to the other ghetto.
- Yeah.
- And you had that eye operation.
- Yeah, no operation--
- Not operation, you were in a hospital.
- Yeah.
- When did that happen after you moved to the ghetto?
- The second ghetto?
- You mean the eye thing?
- Yeah.
- Oh, that happened-- that happened right away.
- Because I couldn't see.
- I was so sick.
- I started-- I didn't tell you that I got sick in my ghetto
- with the eyes.
- I had an inflammation.
- And I just had to go out.
- I couldn't do anything about it.
- So that happened.
- I can't remember dates.
- I just remember it was so cold when we walked.
- Maybe it was in like February of '42.
- Could be.
- Could have been, still winter.
- Could be-- yeah, winter.
- And I come to the ghetto, and all the Polish police left.
- There's no police.
- So the Polish farmers and people--
- the Pollacks, they're breaking the windows in the ghetto,
- and they're robbing, and they're stealing.
- And the women are crying and screaming.
- And I'm walking into this.
- And my mother turns around, and she sees me, she almost died.
- She said, what is she doing here?
- I thought at least she'll survive.
- So all night, nobody slept.
- The next morning, Polish farmers are coming from all
- over to help, with food.
- And that farmer, who took me away that day.
- I never stayed another day in that ghetto.
- And while I was on the farm--
- I worked on another farm, who took my mother and my sister
- to his farm.
- Now wait one second now.
- This farmer came in that day and took you to his farm.
- That farmer came in just to bring some food for some Jews.
- He met people outside the ghetto.
- And his wife was the biggest anti-Semite.
- She hated Jews.
- Because I remember her, when she used to come to our store.
- She was a real--
- when he told her that he wants to take me, she almost died.
- But when he told her that I'm old enough,
- and I can work on the farm, and the garden, and in the fields,
- he came back, and he says his wife said, OK.
- And my mother begged him to take my sister.
- She was only four or five years old then.
- But she wouldn't leave my mother anyways.
- So he took you.
- He took me.
- And your mother-- and your mother and sister stayed.
- Stayed on, and they stayed on there for another few days.
- I mean, nothing happened.
- They liquidated-- like a week later, they killed everybody.
- But that week still--
- my mother got to like a brother of that farmer, with my sister.
- But that farmer wanted more Jews than my mother.
- Because he hoped that someday they'll leave him-- whatever
- they have, it'll be his.
- And whatever they had, they gave him anyways, at the time.
- And he took him too many.
- And they had to bathe.
- They had to wash.
- He kept them there.
- My mother was killed only six months before the war was over.
- So your mother was there--
- She lived there for quite a few years.
- And how about your sister?
- She was with her all the time.
- And it happened one Easter Sunday--
- my farmer drove me all the way to see my mother.
- And if I would sleep over that night,
- I would have been dead with them.
- When it's meant to be alive, you live.
- So you went to visit your mother.
- I went to visit my mother.
- I spent a day and a night.
- And the next morning, they picked me up and took me back
- to the other farm.
- And the next night, they caught them.
- The Germans or Poles?
- The Polish police.
- Came and found them.
- And arrested them.
- Kept them in jail overnight.
- And then they took them to Vilna.
- I don't know-- I'm sure you heard of the Ponary
- in Vilna, where all the-- where the blood was oozing.
- And they didn't bury the people even.
- Most of the Jews from around Vilna
- were killed on the Ponary.
- That's where they were killed.
- And how about the Polish farmer?
- They killed her husband.
- See, they walked in the house, and they saw warm beds.
- And he had that wall built for them.
- So they knew they were there.
- And they yelled at him.
- And he had epilepsy.
- So they started beating him.
- And he had an attack.
- And they dropped him.
- They choked him.
- And maybe they killed him right there and then.
- I don't know what happened.
- Her son ran away, and they didn't touch her.
- And they started shooting in the air.
- And the kids-- there were a couple of kids in that thing,
- and they started crying.
- And they got them.
- OK, so you were taken to this farmer's house in about '42.
- Yeah, that's where I stayed.
- And were there-- and what was their name?
- Zemo.
- That's the last name?
- Zemo was the last name.
- How do you spell that?
- That would be spelled Z, with a dot on top--
- E-M-O.
- And it was a farmer and his wife?
- No, it was just a woman with four sons.
- Her husband was dead.
- One son was married, and three were still single.
- One was a lawyer that came just certain times of the year home,
- to visit.
- And the others worked the farm.
- But I thought the farmer took you back?
- He took me back where?
- When he went to the--
- he had to go ask his wife.
- You said that--
- Oh, that wasn't that farmer.
- My mother was on a different farm.
- That farmer that took me the first time
- from the second ghetto, he took me,
- and I stayed with him one year.
- And then-- he we lived very close to our town.
- He was so scared that they're going to catch me someday,
- working in the fields, and somebody will recognize me.
- He took me on another farm, which was [PLACE NAME],, where
- the Polish president was.
- But that's where I ended my hiding place.
- That was his sister-in-law, that he took me further away,
- like 14 kilometers.
- And that was Zemo?
- That was Zemo.
- The first one was Yuzefovich, I remember.
- Yuzefovich?
- Yuzefovich.
- And you stayed there for a year.
- I stayed the first year, when he took me from the ghetto,
- from Kiemelishki.
- And it was he and his wife.
- Yeah.
- And did they have any children?
- They had two daughters.
- And I'll tell you how I came to go to Poland, because
- of one daughter.
- She did me a favor.
- How I left the farm--
- the reason I left the farm, I hated it.
- When the war was over, and the Russians came in again,
- in 1944, at the end of '44, I had no place to go.
- But I heard that a few Jews survived.
- And they were so wonderful to me, the farmer, and her sons.
- And they said, stay here.
- I was baptized-- during the three years, I was in a church.
- And they baptized me and the whole works.
- They said otherwise I can't live with them.
- This was at the farm of Zemo.
- At the farm of Zemo in [PLACE NAME]..
- And they told me, why do I want to go now?
- After all, everybody is dead, and I
- don't have to work as hard.
- Someday, I'll get married, you know.
- And I had no place to go.
- But I hated the farm.
- So every day, I used to hitchhike with a Russian truck
- into our little town.
- And the few Jews that were there-- and I came in,
- I had coffee.
- I ate with them, I drank with them.
- But nobody told me to stay.
- And I met a Jewish boy, who was in the Russian army.
- He was a Lieutenant.
- He wasn't a boy, he was then 29 years old.
- And I was 15.
- And he says to me, where are you?
- I said, I live on a farm.
- He says, you live on a farm?
- A Jewish girl today shouldn't live on a farm.
- Was this after the war?
- After the war.
- And he says because a lot of Polish people
- used to kill the Jews when they went back to the farms
- to collect their belongings or something.
- I said, well, I have no place to go.
- He says, well-- he says, if you can get a place to stay,
- I'll get you a job.
- He says, I am in charge of a bakery for the army.
- He says, you're too young to work, officially.
- He says, but who says you have to be there officially?
- He says you'll get so much food a day,
- as long as you have a place to stay.
- So my farmer's daughter, who lived in town,
- I paid her a bread a day, and she let me live with her.
- And you know how I got the bread?
- I stole the bread.
- I was watching the soldiers they shouldn't steal.
- But I stole it.
- I didn't get any bread.
- I didn't think I'm doing anything wrong.
- And when I told him what I'm doing,
- he says you want me and you to go to Siberia?
- You're in charge to watch.
- And I was so proud what I was doing.
- I was telling everybody what I'm doing--
- I mean, all my Jewish friends there.
- And so I lost the job.
- And the week I lost the job, a lady,
- who survived with her husband and her daughter,
- who she's in Montreal today.
- Her husband is dead already.
- Her husband was arrested by the Russians,
- and she was scared to death to live alone.
- And she begged me to live with her.
- And she said, someday, maybe we'll
- all go to Israel together.
- Why didn't you stay with me?
- And I was the type, I never wanted charity.
- From the day I was liberated--
- I could have gone to an orphanage after the war.
- There was plenty of orphanages.
- This was after the war.
- After the war.
- OK, let me ask you--
- we'll talk about that, but I just
- want to find out a little bit more
- also about your hiding experiences, OK?
- Yeah.
- When you were at that first place for--
- rather, the farm.
- I would say the first, maybe I was there, maybe six months.
- And he was scared that--
- They were very scared, because our-- in fact,
- the Jewish cemetery was around the corner from him.
- And everybody in the little town knew--
- especially if you had a grocery--
- all the Polish people knew us.
- And they knew me and my parents.
- And he was scared.
- He thinks that people recognize me
- when I was sitting in the gardens,
- cleaning up the cucumbers or whatever doing there.
- And he decided-- he talked over with his sister, who
- lived like 14 kilometers.
- And that's when he moved me there.
- And she said, OK.
- I didn't look Jewish.
- That's one thing was a plus for me.
- I didn't speak Jewish, because I was brought up
- with Polish people all the time.
- My mother was always working.
- So I always-- I mean, I knew how to speak Jewish,
- but I very little used it.
- And when I went to the other farm, nobody knew me.
- I could walk alone in the farms, in the fields,
- nobody knew who I was.
- In the first farm, was he hiding anyone else?
- No.
- You were the only one.
- I was the only one.
- And what did you do?
- You worked in the fields?
- I worked in the fields, milked the cows.
- They didn't have a big farm.
- The one I finished my hiding, that was a big one.
- We had like 20 cows, and 20 pigs, and a big-- a lot
- of land.
- Did they give you enough to eat?
- Oh, yeah.
- Whatever they ate-- they never gave me--
- I ate whatever they ate.
- So you just--
- After my mother was killed, that's when things were tough.
- Because they were afraid.
- Not because they wanted to be mean to me.
- They were afraid to keep me in the house.
- I had to move out.
- I had to sleep in the barn at night.
- This was the second hiding place.
- The last hiding--
- Zemo.
- Yeah.
- OK, so the first hiding place, you were there
- like about six months.
- And then they just decided it was too dangerous.
- Yes.
- Too dangerous for them.
- Right.
- But at the first hiding place, in terms of food,
- and clothing, and everything, you were OK.
- Yeah.
- And these were people that your mother had known.
- Yeah, these are-- all those farmers knew my parents.
- Because of the store.
- Yeah.
- So after about six months later--
- this must have been maybe in the summer of '42 or something,
- or September of '42?
- I would say that was already in '43.
- In '43.
- Yeah.
- You were taken to Zemo.
- Yeah.
- And there, it was just a woman.
- A woman and four sons.
- Four sons.
- In a big, big house, a big barn, and a lot of animals,
- a lot of everything.
- Were there anyone else hiding there?
- No.
- And why did they take you?
- Because of the brother.
- They did it for their brother.
- I didn't know those farmers at all.
- But we knew the brother.
- My parents were wonderful to them all the time.
- And the brother just did it.
- The man that took me from that ghetto, Kiemelishki.
- He was a wonderful man.
- His wife was just a Jew hater.
- She hated everybody.
- But he was a wonderful man.
- He just-- one of those old men, with a big mustache.
- And he was just good.
- And his sister was the same way.
- In fact, after all that good that the doctor did me
- in the hospital, on that last farm my eyes got so bad,
- and I couldn't get to a doctor.
- And she just cured me, like a miracle cure.
- She just used to sit with me every night--
- we had no electricity on those farms--
- with steam.
- Every night, when everybody went to bed,
- she used to light a fire, put a kettle
- on the fire, and the steam go into my eyes
- and take away the heat and whatever was there.
- So you were about 13 then?
- Yeah.
- I think I must have been almost 14.
- Yeah.
- And how old were her four sons?
- Were they young?
- The youngest was then 28--
- Oh, so they--
- --the youngest.
- --were all old.
- Oh, yeah, they were all-- one was married,
- and one was an old bachelor, in his late 30s.
- Did they all live on the farm?
- The one was 28, they always thought
- that some day he'll marry me.
- Oh, really?
- They used to say that.
- Yeah, someday, Jamek will marry you.
- His name was Jamek.
- And all four of them lived on the farm?
- No, three of them-- the married one, he didn't--
- he was married while I was there.
- It was a big wedding too.
- I had to go through with that wedding.
- I had to hide, and I wanted to be at the wedding.
- Because a lot of people came from my hometown
- for the wedding.
- So I had to hide.
- And the son-- the lawyer--
- happened to come there for certain holidays.
- He used to come.
- He lived in a big city.
- And there was one, he was like a policeman.
- They were such-- and they used to call me
- every name in the book.
- But when I think of it, how much they hated me,
- but they never would give me out.
- Or maybe they were afraid to give me out
- because it would happen to them too.
- How did your mother respond?
- How did their mother respond when they would attack you
- like that?
- She wouldn't say nothing.
- She just used to comfort me afterwards.
- She was just wonderful.
- We had an incident once on that farm.
- Two Germans came in in the morning to our farm
- for eggs, two German officers.
- And they had their eggs.
- And when they were walking back, they
- were killed by the partisans.
- There was all woods there, and there was a lot of partisans--
- Russians, and Polish, and maybe Jewish, I don't know.
- They were shot.
- So they announced that night that all the farms
- are going to burn.
- They're going to burn them up.
- So they said to me, you get out of the house.
- I shouldn't be in the house at night at all.
- Because I used to come in at night, warm up.
- Used to give me food.
- Because once my parents were killed-- my mother was killed,
- I couldn't sleep in the house anymore.
- And it was winter.
- I remember, it was so white.
- The moon was shining.
- And I said, I'm not going.
- I'm scared.
- I'm not going alone.
- She says, you have to get out.
- So they all picked themselves up.
- I didn't even know when-- and they walked out.
- And they ran out.
- And they left me alone in the house.
- And no lights, and just the moon.
- And the snow made it so bright.
- And I'm going out.
- I'm alone in the house.
- I'm so scared.
- I figured, they must be in the woods.
- I'm running.
- When I started to run-- when you walk in snow, when
- you run in snow, how much noise that makes.
- They thought they're being chased.
- And I knew it was them.
- And I kept running, and they were running.
- We went around in circles.
- And we all wound up back in the house.
- And I'll never forget how she took me--
- in Poland, on the farms, you used
- to bake bread in the ovens.
- And on top, it was very warm.
- It was made from cement.
- And that's where I slept before I had to get out of the house.
- And you could die from the heat there at night.
- When I came back to that house that night, and nothing really
- happened.
- The Germans only scared the farmers,
- and they didn't burn anything down.
- And in a moment like this, I felt the war is over.
- Every time something good happened, I always said,
- it's over.
- I had an incident once in the summer,
- that I was working in the fields.
- And the Germans were grabbing young Polish kids
- to work to Germany.
- And I figured that's all I have to be, is caught and brought
- to my hometown, and they'll point me out who I am.
- And I wasn't much afraid to go to work.
- It's just that I'm a Jew, and I won't survive.
- So I didn't know what to do.
- How should I hide?
- What should I do with myself?
- And we had-- and on the farm--
- This was in '40.
- That was when I was living on that farm,
- but that was in the summer, the summer before.
- The first farm?
- On the second farm.
- No, the first farm, I didn't have too many experiences.
- And that day, I had a basket.
- I was picking potatoes.
- There's two kinds of potatoes, early ones and late ones.
- So the late one-- the early ones were cut off already.
- The hay of it was cut off, and was whole scoops of it
- made all over the field.
- And the new ones were growing.
- And I said to myself, where should I hide?
- And I could hear the police, Lithuanian police,
- running all over the fields, grabbing,
- and screaming, and yelling.
- And I get myself into one of those pile of hays.
- And I said, no, I'm not going to lie here.
- What if they stick a bayonet through me.
- It's wonderful how you think when you want to survive.
- I got out of there.
- And I said the only way I'm going to do it,
- I'm going to dig myself a hole in between the new potatoes
- that are growing.
- And I'll lie there.
- They grow in rows.
- And in between, there's like a canal.
- I dug it with my hands.
- And I took my basket, and I threw it way away--
- I mean, very far away from me.
- And I said, I'm going to lie here.
- And I said, what happens, happens.
- I hope they don't see me.
- And every time I tell the story--
- I mean, it's unbelievable when I think of it.
- And I lie down in those potatoes.
- And I'm lying there.
- And I only pick-- and I made up my mind
- that I'm going to lie there till I hear a voice that I know,
- that I can get up.
- And as I'm lying there, I open up my eyes,
- and a big soldier is standing with his back to my head.
- I mean, just with his back.
- If he would turn around, he couldn't help, but see me.
- And he's eating a cucumber that he grabbed from our garden,
- running through our fields.
- And with a big gun on his back, and he's just standing there,
- and eating, and looking all over the fields.
- And there was nobody in our fields,
- but people were working on the other fields.
- And he kept walking.
- And he kept walking away from me.
- And then as the time went on, I only heard echoes.
- And I said, I'm not getting up.
- I'm going to lie here.
- Somebody has to come.
- Because they knew about-- it was like a raid.
- They made a raid.
- And this was the Lithuanian police?
- A Lithuanian policeman.
- Because the Lithuanians-- the Lithuanian borders
- opened up when the Germans came in.
- And they were-- now the Poles were already, gold.
- They became the real bandits.
- Anti-Semites.
- They're really killers.
- In towns like my town, there were not too
- many Germans that killed anybody.
- It was just the Polish and the Lithuanians.
- And I'm lying there.
- And all of a sudden, I hear a voice of the woman.
- And she says, Bronka, are you there?
- And I'm still not getting up.
- And then I hear her closer and closer.
- And I got up, and I ran to her.
- And I walked into the house.
- And I thought the war is over.
- The war was over pretty soon, another five months, I think.
- But I felt so free.
- She says, you still have to get out of the house I said,
- I'm not going out, everything is fine.
- I said, they didn't get me.
- I had that wonderful free feeling, and that this is it.
- They didn't get me--
- That was in '44.
- That was already the beginning of '44.
- Because it was-- I don't remember what month.
- I just know the old potatoes were cut off,
- and the new ones were growing, and it was spring or almost
- summer.
- I don't remember months or years.
- That's fine.
- You can just tell me the time-- the season is fine.
- Yeah, the season.
- And I came to the house.
- And they felt good about it too, that they didn't get me.
- And then one day--
- Was this-- had your mother died yet?
- Had your mother been killed?
- No.
- Your mother was still alive.
- That's when it happened, when he came--
- one of the sons, who had a girlfriend in the city,
- and he used to go by bicycle.
- And one day, he left early, and he came back too fast.
- And he comes back, and he says to me he has to talk to me.
- I said, why do you have to talk to me?
- He says, I hate to tell you, he says,
- but they took everybody away from my uncle's farm.
- Because the first farmer that I told you that took me,
- his brother took in my mother, and my sister, and four
- other women with children.
- But he took in for money.
- They gave him everything they owned.
- If we only had one, those things wouldn't happen.
- But they were too hungry for things,
- and they wanted money and stuff.
- And I said, what do you mean?
- And he says, and I hate to tell you, he says,
- you have to get out of the house.
- You cannot stay here.
- Well, at that point, you knew that your mother was dead?
- Well, I didn't think of my mother at all.
- At that moment, I just thought I better get out of here.
- Because I heard stories that in the ghettos,
- people used to be so jealous of each other,
- that if they knew that somebody's child is alive
- someplace, they used to tell the police.
- I mean, that was what-- people were like--
- Other Jews?
- Other Jews, yes.
- And mothers-- they say that mothers used to give out--
- I don't know.
- I just know one thing--
- But you heard.
- That that at that moment, I didn't think even
- of my mother at all.
- I just-- they gave me a basket of food.
- And they said every morning they'll meet me.
- I should come up at night in the barn and sleep there.
- And I cannot stay in the house.
- Because nobody knows who is going
- to come to look or search.
- So that was-- and that was only six
- months before the war was over.
- And they were taken away.
- And then I didn't hear any more about them, because they just
- knew that they took the husband away,
- and they took them all away.
- They told me-- that in our town was a police,
- and they kept them there overnight,
- and then they took them to Vilna, to be killed.
- And then, all of a sudden, you hear tanks, and you hear--
- a few months later, you hear--
- Let me ask you then-- when you were--
- so at that point, you were hiding in the fields.
- Yeah.
- But during that-- that was like, let's
- see '42, '43-- about three years that you were there.
- Yeah, most of the time, I lived in the house.
- You lived in the house.
- And again--
- In the house, till the end of the war.
- In terms of food and clothing?
- I ate what they ate.
- I mean, maybe if they had meat or like for a holiday,
- maybe they ate more.
- But I was never hungry for food.
- I was cold a lot in the winter, because I had no clothes.
- Because they don't wear clothes.
- I had such a bladder, that I was 14 years old,
- and I wet my bed every night.
- Because I never wore underpants.
- I didn't have any.
- And when I was 14, I got my first period.
- And I only had it once.
- And I didn't know what to do.
- So I sat in the river all day.
- Did you?
- All day-- all day in the river.
- And I was afraid to tell the lady.
- And when I did--
- Did you know what was happening?
- No.
- You thought maybe you cut your self?
- I was bleeding.
- No, I didn't know.
- I was bleeding.
- I cut myself.
- But I didn't.
- But I want you to know, I never had another period
- till I got married, again.
- So you had your first period when you were 14,
- and then you didn't get another period till you were married.
- How old were you when you got married?
- 16.
- And I happened to get my period two weeks before I was married.
- You know how it is in the Jewish religion?
- Yes, you have to wait.
- But I didn't.
- I lied to the rabbi.
- OK, but that's-- wait, so you spent the whole day
- in the river.
- This is when you were 14.
- And when I came back-- yeah.
- And when I came back, and that cold water didn't stop.
- So I finally had to tell the lady.
- So she gave me a lot of clothes, schmattas and stuff.
- But did she explain to you what was happening?
- No.
- She didn't tell you why you were bleeding?
- I don't think so.
- Did you understand it was because of-- that you
- were menstruating?
- I don't think so.
- Because if I will tell you a story--
- before I had my first baby, I didn't know where
- it was going to come from.
- I didn't know.
- And everybody laughs, but I thought--
- I'll tell you a cute story.
- I thought the baby has to come through the stomach.
- Because when I was a little girl--
- we had no baths in the house, but every Friday--
- not Friday-- every like once a week, the women
- used to go to the mikvah and to the bath.
- You bathe, and then you went to the mikvah
- and got your clothes.
- And I went along with my mother.
- And I used to look at the women.
- And on their stomachs, from the navel down, they had a line.
- And I believed that that's where it opens up,
- and the baby comes out.
- Until I had my own baby--
- and I knew where it came out from,
- because I had a natural birth.
- I'll never forget it.
- And I just didn't know.
- So who knew about periods or anything?
- I was just-- after I got married, it was terrible--
- Weren't you scared then, when you had
- that-- when you were bleeding?
- Oh, at that time?
- Yeah.
- I don't even remember what I was.
- I'll tell you the truth, between the lice and the blood--
- I had so much lice in my clothes that I used to go in the river
- and dunk my dress so they'll come out.
- But cold water is the worst thing.
- They multiply even more.
- You have to boil them in hot water.
- At that time-- and then I developed some kind
- of a disease on my skin.
- I remember there was a wedding on that farm,
- and my whole skin was like a leprosy.
- I was terrible.
- It was pussy, and it was all bruises all over my face.
- And it went away.
- I'm telling you, like you see the miracle maker--
- no doctors, no medicine, it went away.
- Maybe it was some sort of a--
- And let me tell you something, my eyes is just a plain--
- I mean, I just went to a special surgeon.
- I knew one because I've been going to a doctor
- that you have to wait three months for an appointment.
- So I said, there must be somebody that takes you sooner.
- I happened to go to a big doctor.
- And he's a boy that went with my son in the army together.
- And he examined me for the first time.
- And he says, Mrs. Wluka, he says, with your astigmatism,
- with your scar tissue, I don't know how you see it all.
- And I see pretty good.
- I manicure.
- I mean, maybe-- I don't cut anybody up.
- Maybe I don't cut enough cuticle.
- But I see very--
- I can read.
- I can't read too long, because I get dizzy.
- But it's just a miracle.
- He says he cannot believe how I can see it all.
- I mean, I have very heavy glasses.
- But I cannot get anything stronger.
- Because at my age now, he said that's the strongest
- they can give me.
- So that was a miracle-- no doctor, no medicine.
- And my biggest problem was, after the war
- that I didn't listen to the doctor.
- When I had a doctor who told me that I have to wear
- glasses immediately, and I was getting sick.
- Every week, I had an inflammation in the eyes,
- and I wouldn't wear glasses.
- Why?
- Because a young girl in Europe, glasses?
- It was--
- Vanity.
- And I had nothing to worry about.
- I was married already.
- I didn't see my husband.
- That's why I married him.
- That's what I always tell him.
- I didn't see him when I married him.
- All right, so right around '44, when your mother and sister was
- killed, or were caught--
- Yeah.
- --and they told you to go into the field.
- And so you weren't staying at their house any longer.
- No.
- They just used to bring me food.
- They used to give me work to do in the fields.
- Like we used to feed the pigs with poison ivy.
- That's what you fed the pigs with.
- They used to give me big gloves and a thing that you cut.
- It's a round thing.
- What do you call that?
- That you cut grass?
- Yeah, a scythe.
- A scythe, yeah.
- And I used to cut for the pigs, get the food for the pigs.
- And I had to come in the barn at night.
- Three times a day, you milked cows.
- I milked the cows.
- I earned my keep.
- But they were wonderful to me.
- Because they let me stay, even on the barn.
- At night, I used to sleep--
- the barn was open, just a roof, and the two ends
- are open, an a lot of hay.
- But the animals were underneath, the cows, horses.
- And the partisans in those woods were shooting all night.
- You could see bullets flying-- fire flying.
- I was afraid the barn would catch fire someday.
- The partisans, meaning Jews that were
- out and hiding in the forest?
- I don't know whether they were Polish partisans,
- they were Jews maybe.
- There were a lot of--
- And they were fighting.
- So it was like--
- They were fighting each other.
- Like a resistance-- they were fighting the Germans together,
- and then fighting each other.
- I'm sure fighting each other if they were Polish against Jews.
- But a lot of Jewish men were in the Russian partisans,
- that ran away to Russia.
- And as they were coming--
- approaching closer and closer.
- See the end was that the Russians were
- chasing the Germans back.
- And they were coming again to our farm.
- That's when-- the Russians came into our farm--
- I'll never forget.
- The war was over.
- And my people were so excited for me, the farmers.
- Do you remember what season this was?
- I'll tell you what season it was,
- because I used to hitchhike.
- In '44 or '45.
- I used to hitchhike-- that was the end of '44, maybe
- like October.
- Because I used to hitchhike in the streets, with the soldiers,
- to go into town.
- And it was warm.
- So it was either spring or beginning of the fall.
- I can't think of months.
- I just remember that I came to Poland--
- I came to my town, back.
- Well, this is after the war.
- I'm talking after the war.
- The war was over, and I still stayed on the farm
- for three months.
- And then I finally decided, when I moved in with that woman,
- and I got the job.
- And then I moved in with a Jewish woman.
- OK, well, let's take this one at a time.
- Yeah.
- OK, so the Russians-- you were going to tell me exactly when
- the Russians liberated your--
- Yeah, when they came on the farm.
- Actually, some of them came on the farm for milk, for eggs.
- And they used-- they didn't know who I was.
- I was sitting there, just listening.
- And they kept saying that they're sorry that Hitler
- didn't kill all the Jews.
- Russians were saying this?
- These were Russian soldiers.
- And I had to listen to that, sitting
- with those Polish anti-Semites that hated Jews.
- And I had to listen.
- Here are the Russians, supposed to-- they are so happy for me,
- that the Russians are coming to liberate me.
- Because they hated the Russians, those
- Pollacks where I lived with.
- Because they were rich people.
- And I heard that after I left the farm, that the Russians
- invaded their farm.
- They put poor people in there.
- And they sent them away to Siberia.
- Her sons ran away.
- I'm sure-- look, she was then in her 60s.
- And we're going back 40 years.
- So I'm sure she's dead.
- She was the only one that was wonderful.
- But I cannot say nothing about them because they never harmed
- me.
- They called me names, and they called
- me dirty names and everything, but they never
- hurt me or harmed me.
- They made me work.
- Her and I did most of the work.
- We did more work than her four sons put together.
- So when the Russians liberated you,
- you then continued to stay on the farm
- for about three months.
- I stayed for three months.
- And then one day--
- Until 1945?
- Yeah.
- I came-- I remember-- see, I only
- can go back, because I remember I got married in October.
- October what?
- October '45.
- OK, so you were 15 around when the war finished.
- When I got married, I was 16.
- I got married at 16, because my 17th birthday was in January.
- And I came to Germany in June, from Poland.
- My hometown, I left like in May or June.
- Because it took us quite a while to get into to Austria.
- They wouldn't let us through the borders,
- because they didn't know who we were,
- and we couldn't go as Jews.
- So we went as Greeks.
- We spoke Hebrew.
- I mean, we had to go through the borders
- and through different towns.
- Well, first, you spent three months in--
- On the farm.
- On the farm.
- After the war.
- And afterwards, that Russian soldier
- helped you to get a job.
- Yeah.
- And you stole bread in order to pay the woman.
- Yeah.
- And how long did you do that?
- Oh, a few months.
- Because the incident with the Jewish woman
- that happened, that the husband was arrested.
- And then I lived with her.
- And with her, I signed up to go to Israel,
- and we came to Poland--
- I mean, deep part of Poland, like Lódz.
- We came to Lódz, and we stayed there for three weeks,
- like in a school, as immigrants.
- Right.
- And from there I separated from her.
- Because she just went on.
- And I stayed in Austria.
- And I met my husband.
- I stayed in a school.
- Well, you went from Poland into Austria?
- To Austria, to Salzburg.
- They brought us there.
- They're going to bring us to Israel.
- Who's they?
- Some organization, some Jewish organization
- that was in Lódz, that was going to transport us
- to Israel someday.
- And they signed us up.
- And they brought us as far as Salzburg, Austria--
- first Vienna.
- In Vienna, we were just a few weeks.
- And then the brought us to Salzburg.
- They put us all in a school, a public school.
- It was in the summer.
- I know it was June.
- There was no school.
- They gave us mattresses, and we were under the American zone.
- So they gave us every morning a ration of food and our bread.
- Did you have to-- in order to get into the American zone--
- Yeah.
- --you had to do something.
- No, we didn't have to do-- in order to get into Austria,
- we had to go through so many borders,
- and to get out of Poland to go into Austria,
- we went through hell.
- We had to walk.
- We had to throw away everything we had.
- Did this Jewish organization help
- you do all this, to get you to Austria?
- When we got to Lódz--
- in Lódz already, there was a Jewish organization working.
- And they signed us up, like they'll take us to Israel.
- But they took us as far as Salzburg, Austria.
- And they left us there, like for a while.
- But most of us-- everybody went the wrong way.
- And I mean, I signed up that time to go to Israel.
- I had a choice in one night to make up my mind to get married
- or to go to Israel.
- And I decided to get married.
- It looks like it was a good decision.
- I think so.
- Now it was, because the guy that wanted
- to take me to Israel, my first cousin of mine,
- he never made anything of himself.
- When the war was over, you told me all the different things
- that you did.
- Could you tell me a little bit about--
- even when you were selling--
- when you had that job with the bread,
- where you were on the farm, were you aware at that point of what
- had happened to the Jews?
- Oh, yeah.
- Were you aware that--
- There were so much told to us already then.
- And we knew everything, what happened.
- And even then still, you had to struggle to survive.
- And especially myself, in my hometown--
- I told you, I never wanted to go to an orphanage,
- and I never wanted charity.
- And we owned our own house.
- And in my house lived a couple of prostitutes.
- And they were very nice girls, but they only
- paid me if they had money, if they worked.
- When was this now?
- That was in my hometown, in Podberezhe.
- That was right after the war, while I
- was working in the bakery and living with the Polish lady.
- But I always wanted to be on my own.
- And when I moved in with the Jewish lady,
- that her husband was arrested, I said,
- I don't want nothing from her either.
- So I used to go to the train stations
- and sell hamburgers to the Russian soldiers.
- I used to make them a pound of potatoes-- two pounds
- of potatoes to a pound of meat.
- We made hamburgers.
- They were very big when they were hot,
- and they shrunk when they were small.
- But I never went back with hamburgers.
- If I couldn't sell them for 10 rubles, I sold them for 3.
- But I never brought them back.
- And I made a lot of money working on the train station.
- When I came to Lódz, with a Jewish family, when I signed up
- from my hometown to go to Lódz, I came with Polish money.
- And there was nothing you could do with it.
- There was very little.
- There was no stores yet.
- And the only thing it goes-- to a beauty shop.
- That's where I went to be-- they call it de-liced.
- Because I was still-- we still had it.
- Because the war was over, but we didn't have any facilities,
- any hot water, any nothing.
- So that was my first money that I really spent.
- It was worthwhile, because I never had nothing since.
- That was in 1945.
- And you were 16 years old.
- And as far as you knew, everyone in your family
- had died or been killed.
- I knew-- I mean, I knew of my father,
- when my mother was still alive, that he was killed.
- And I knew my mother was taken away.
- And we knew that nobody came out of the Ponary alive.
- And, in fact, one Polish lady kept
- saying that she wanted to take my little sister.
- And she begged the police, but maybe--
- she did, maybe she didn't.
- Would you tell me a little bit about what the Ponary were?
- The Ponary were the most beautiful woods before the war.
- And that's where they decided that's big enough
- to bury everybody.
- Because Vilna had 70,000 Jews--
- Vilna, itself.
- And then I don't know how many thousands of Jews
- that were brought into the ghetto.
- Vilna had a big ghetto.
- And all those Jews from all the surrounding towns,
- whoever got there, was killed there, and was buried there.
- And that's what the Ponary were.
- Yeah.
- OK.
- So let's see, when you were in Austria,
- and this was like in June of 1945.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, we came to Salzburg in June.
- OK.
- It was summer.
- Because you know why I remember it was summer?
- Because whoever had a husband or a boyfriend,
- they used to go at night, and steal in the gardens-- tomatoes
- and cucumbers.
- Because the food they gave us in the morning,
- we ate it up in the morning.
- And all day, we were starving.
- We were so hungry for food.
- I used to cry all day.
- I think I was mostly the youngest there.
- I didn't have anybody.
- And that's why I got married so fast too.
- Because I met a woman that survived from my home town.
- And she already lived in Salzburg, in a house.
- And my husband was in Auschwitz with her husband.
- And I used to go there.
- She used to make food for me.
- And that's how I met my husband.
- And how old was your husband at the time?
- You were 16.
- He was 23.
- I thought he was a very old man.
- Seven years older at the time.
- Oh, yeah.
- And so you met him there.
- Yeah.
- And did you have some sort of courtship or you just
- spent time together?
- Very short.
- I think I was alone with him maybe twice before we
- were married.
- Because the first time we met in their house,
- they made dinner for the two of us.
- And they told me all about him.
- And then they said to me that they
- think it's a good idea if I talk alone to him.
- Because I was never alone with him, talking what
- his ideas are.
- Was this sort of like a Shidduch?
- Well, they told him about me, and they told me about him.
- And my first impression was he's too old for me.
- And I didn't date anybody.
- I never went out with anybody.
- If I went out, it was with a bunch of boys and girls,
- after the war, in Austria.
- Because we all lived in a displaced persons camp,
- in Hellbrunn kaserne there, in Riedenburg.
- A lot of people are here that were in that camp.
- And they said to me that he's alone,
- and he's really a good provider, and he really needs a wife.
- Because he had a girlfriend, and it didn't work out.
- And believe you me, I didn't know what marriage means
- or anything.
- I just said to myself, why should I be alone?
- Nobody's alone.
- Because wherever you saw--
- wherever there was a girl, she had a boyfriend or a husband.
- Nobody wanted to be alone, Not after the war.
- If they didn't have one, then they got one right away.
- Whether they were 20 years older.
- The men were really lucky.
- Every one of them got a 20-year-old younger girl.
- 16-year-old girls married 40-year-old guys too,
- at the time.
- And in fact, if I wouldn't have married my husband--
- he disappeared for a couple of weeks after he met me--
- they had another one ready for me.
- I mean, there was a lot of men.
- And they wanted to get married.
- They got married too.
- Nobody fell in love right away.
- They just didn't want to be alone.
- It was just this need right away to get--
- To be with somebody, and to have somebody to take care of you.
- Because that's all you cared is food.
- And somehow, the men could organize better than the women.
- Food and shelter and to be to taken care of.
- Food and shelter, and to be not alone, to be with somebody.
- You said you were crying every day.
- After I was married--
- not every day, but 100 times a day.
- After you were married?
- Yes.
- Because I was just--
- I didn't really know what I did when I got married.
- I wasn't in love with anybody.
- And I didn't think this is the way to be.
- I mean I thought somebody put me in a jail.
- That's how I felt about the whole thing.
- And my husband had a lot of patience.
- He was wonderful.
- That's all I wanted to go in those days, is dancing.
- I didn't care for food anymore.
- I just wanted to go out and have a good time, be with kids.
- Be with kids-- and I mean kids.
- And my husband understood it.
- And don't forget, at 23, he was still very young.
- And he lived through Auschwitz for six years.
- But his mind already was like 100-year-old man's.
- So when I met a 16-year-old boy, being married to my husband--
- my husband made sure that I used to go dancing.
- And he used to invite a lot of boys.
- He did.
- And he used to pay for them.
- The kids had no money.
- I mean, they were kids.
- There were a few Hungarian boys.
- We used to go to the most gorgeous nightclubs.
- Your husband really loved you.
- He says he did the first sight.
- He remembers my dress I wore when he met me.
- We met, actually, the first time at a wedding.
- You know, weddings used to be made in the houses.
- Everybody baked and cooked.
- And I was at that wedding.
- And I always used to entertain, and sing, and dance, and tell
- stories, and jokes.
- And he was sitting with a girl there,
- which was his girlfriend.
- I don't know-- I think they lived together or whatever.
- And she looked 10 times my size.
- And she was much older than I was, very mature, and very
- sexy, nice looking girl.
- And everybody told me that she's his girl.
- So when the people that introduced me to him--
- I said, what do you mean him?
- He's got a girl.
- No, that's just a cousin that he met after the war.
- And I believed everybody everything.
- But somehow, I wasn't stupid or anything,
- but I didn't know anything about sex,
- or life, or love, or anything.
- Well you were 12 years old when the war broke out.
- You never really--
- Yeah, and who in Europe told you?
- Even when you were 16, they wouldn't tell you.
- Are you kidding me?
- They told you nothing.
- The mother was afraid--
- did you ever see Archie?
- I mean, she don't tell--
- It's sort of like ignorance is bliss and knowledge is like--
- Exactly, Nothing.
- Who knew?
- When I went into the hospital to have my first son in Austria,
- I was a very little girl.
- And that's all I had, is just a belly.
- I didn't carry it too big.
- I only gained like 16 pounds the whole pregnancy.
- But when my husband walked away, I said, this is the end.
- I'll never come out of here alive.
- I just you'll die.
- You're not going to live.
- How can you live?
- This thing is going to open up.
- It's going to burst.
- I mean, the thoughts-- and when I think about it.
- You didn't have anyone to talk, to help, to explain,
- or you didn't feel you could ask?
- I had a wonderful doctor, but the doctor
- didn't come to deliver my baby.
- I had a midwife in the hospital.
- I was in a nun's hospital, like a Holy Cross.
- They were so wonderful to me.
- But the midwife--
- I was for 11 hours in labor.
- She didn't get up.
- She slept through the whole thing.
- I didn't scream, but I ran to the bathroom
- I could have dropped the baby in the toilet.
- I had so much pressure, and I thought
- I had to go to the bathroom.
- I ripped everything in bed.
- She wouldn't get up.
- At 5:00 in the morning, she says she thinks now
- it's time for her to get up.
- And by 6:00, my baby was born.
- And the minute my baby was born--
- it shows you when you're young, like nothing ever happened
- to me.
- I felt so good.
- In fact, I yelled through the window.
- My husband was all night outside.
- I didn't even know.
- And of course, when his first son was born,
- he I think loved me from-- the way
- he tells me today-- from the first day he met me.
- But when that baby was born, I think
- if I told him to jump off the roof, he would.
- I mean, there was nothing.
- He used to keep in the house we lived--
- we lived with a German family--
- Austrian family.
- And they had a garden.
- He used to keep 20 little baby chicks,
- and every day I had one for dinner.
- They used to bring it to the hospital.
- That woman that introduced us used to cook the soup,
- and fry the chicken, or whatever,
- and bring it to me to the hospital.
- In Europe, after the war, when you had a baby,
- they kept you in bed for 10 days.
- When I walked out of bed, I thought I'll never
- skate, never ski, never dance.
- My life is over.
- And I was still only 17 years old.
- And I wanted my life just to begin.
- So I had a little girl that used to take care of the baby.
- I had-- like a nurse used to come and bathe him, and wash
- him, and do everything for him.
- And after the war, for food, you had
- a woman that took care of you, and of the baby,
- and of everything.
- It was no problem.
- And then I got myself a little girl,
- when he got a little older, to take care of him
- in the daytime.
- And I used to go to two movies a day.
- When I think of it, it was so much missing in us,
- that we wanted so much to do, that we missed,
- to catch up on all the things.
- And I have--
- What is your son's name?
- David.
- David, OK.
- And he was your first son.
- He was my first son.
- So you-- so when you went to--
- to Vienna.
- Salzburg.
- Salzburg, sorry.
- We lived in Salzburg.
- We were--
- You decided not to go to Israel.
- Yeah.
- See, in Israel, I had a big family.
- And as stupid as I was then, I knew if I go with my cousin--
- because I saw what was going on.
- Every girl that had a boy, they lived together.
- They slept together.
- And I had a feeling if I go with that cousin, he'll use me.
- And I just made up my mind that's
- not going to happen to me.
- But I thought you were with another woman.
- Well, there was a-- that woman, I met in Austria.
- She used to be my mother's neighbor, that
- survived Auschwitz with a man.
- I don't know, her first husband was killed in the war.
- And she met another guy.
- And they're in Brazil someplace today.
- And she introduced me to my husband.
- But I met her-- see, I met her first in Lódz.
- She was liberated.
- She was coming.
- And then we went our own way.
- She went someplace else, and I went someplace else.
- And then when we came to Salzburg, I met her again.
- And she lived in a house already, not in a camp.
- They took away-- because a lot of Jews after the war,
- took over villas, took away houses from the Germans.
- They had a little freedom just for a while.
- Because immediately--
- Houses that they originally had?
- You mean, originally theirs?
- No, no, no.
- No, no, these were Polish Jews, that came to Germany,
- but they felt that everything--
- Angry.
- Give it back, you know.
- Right.
- Yeah.
- But it didn't last long.
- Because even with the German family,
- where I lived after I was married,
- they gave me my own room, and I had kitchen privileges.
- And whatever I had in my room--
- I had a bed, and a little table, and a couch,
- and a crib for the baby--
- So you and your husband lived there?
- Yeah.
- And every time I went someplace for the day,
- a chair was missing.
- She used to take things away.
- And nobody could stop her.
- And I lived there till I came to this country.
- I lived there for four years with that family.
- Were you ever in a DP camp?
- Just for a while before, I got married, in Riedenburg,
- in Salzburg.
- What were you doing-- that was on your way to Israel.
- On the way.
- We were going to go to Israel.
- And which one were you in?
- Do you remember?
- Riedenburg, Salzburg, yeah.
- OK.
- And what did you do there in the camp.
- We did nothing.
- Oh, we used to take care of the-- we used
- to Polish the men's shoes.
- There was a few young ones, like myself, girls.
- We used to take care of the rooms, clean, cook, you know,
- boil potatoes.
- In the morning, make cocoa for everybody.
- The men were working.
- The young girls didn't do anything.
- I mean, maybe professional ones had some jobs.
- And that's and that's when you met your husband, shortly
- after that.
- Yeah, I met him--
- I'm telling you, I came in June to Salzburg.
- And I was in that school, just for a little while.
- And then I came to Riedenburg.
- And I moved-- in fact, one of my friends,
- she's the worst really.
- She lives in New Jersey.
- And we slept together in one bed.
- There was just rooms for so many girls, for so many guys.
- And 90% of the girls were older.
- And they all were in Auschwitz.
- And they all had boyfriends.
- And there were a lot of Greek Jews.
- And there was such a mixture in those camps.
- And I think that's why I got married so fast.
- I just said--
- A lot of pressure to get married.
- --how long can you live like this?
- I mean, alone, and being so nice, and the goody-goody.
- They used to call me Bronia with the couch.
- I was the only one on a couch by myself.
- Everybody had a partner in bed.
- So I think that's what made me get married so fast too.
- And I always-- I used to say, oh, I'll get married someday,
- and I'll have my own room, and my own clothes,
- and my own this.
- And I had such visions, you know, what I'm going to have.
- And I had them.
- My husband was wonderful.
- I mean, if we couldn't go dancing Saturday night--
- I mean, maybe someday you can say it on the tape,
- you can erase it-- my husband used
- to rent a room to American GIs, with girls,
- so we can go dancing.
- Because to me, if I couldn't go dancing Saturday night, I--
- So you got married in January of--
- No, October '45.
- October '45.
- Yeah.
- And what was your husband--
- and then you lived in a room?
- Yeah.
- The minute we got married, we got from the city--
- anybody who was married was given rations
- and was given a room.
- So we were given a room with kitchen privileges, bathroom
- privileges, with a German family, who was a husband,
- and wife, and a daughter.
- And this was arranged through--
- Through like a city-- through the city of Salzburg,
- that the Jewish organization helped.
- There was like a Bricha there.
- There was a lot of organizations.
- And, of course, we could have been married and lived
- in a displaced persons camp.
- There were a lot of camps in Salzburg, itself.
- But, of course, we didn't want it.
- So if we could get a room, we got a room.
- And we lived in the suburb.
- I mean, you had to go by bus to the city.
- And Salzburg was a beautiful city.
- What did your husband do?
- He did-- first, he went partners.
- Because there was a Polish man that survived the war too,
- was in camps.
- And they opened up a canteen, like soda water, and cookies,
- and cake.
- And people used to meet there, and play cards, you know.
- And they made enough money to survive.
- Then Americans used to come and trade
- with cigarettes, and chocolate, and all that stuff,
- because the American GIs were there.
- And they were wonderful.
- I remember my 17th birthday party,
- we had all American soldiers at the party.
- They said, it's like an American wedding.
- And when I came in '49, I saw my first wedding,
- I said my party wasn't like that [LAUGHS]..
- Because we have cousins in Brooklyn, the Chateau Gorard.
- They are cousins, the Gorodetsk's.
- And in those days, they didn't have the Gold Room.
- They just had a little Crystal Room.
- And I saw the first American wedding.
- And I didn't think-- although, I had a beautiful birthday
- party--
- I had a cake made by a Hungarian baker.
- And I was four months pregnant at my 17th birthday party.
- Oh, really?
- That's right.
- So you got-- so you were married in October,
- and you had a baby--
- In August, the following August, 10 months.
- 10 months-- everybody told me-- my husband told me.
- He's the first one that told me that we won't
- have any kids for five years.
- And I told you I had my first period before I was married,
- and my second period.
- And then I didn't get it the following month.
- So the women says, oh, you're just married, take a hot bath,
- and you'll get your period.
- I took a hot bath, and I got my period.
- That was the first time.
- The second time, I didn't get it again.
- So they told me again to take a hot bath
- and to drink some liquor on an empty stomach.
- And I didn't get it.
- This time it stayed with me, nothing helped.
- When did you find out were pregnant?
- Three months after I was pregnant.
- I was in a play in the camps.
- I used to entertain.
- We had plays, shows, put on shows.
- In the DP camp.
- In DP camps.
- And we used to travel.
- Who's we?
- The group.
- But my husband went with me.
- A group of new Americans--
- Americans-- groups of survivors in the camps, in Salzburg.
- And we formed a group of actors.
- But you weren't in the camp at the time.
- No, but they knew me.
- We were always in the camp, every day,
- being with the young people.
- I hated where I lived, in that suburb there, in that room.
- I couldn't wait to get out of there.
- So we used to go to camp.
- And I was in that group.
- And we used to entertain.
- And then we had to travel, to Linz, and to Vienna.
- And I loved it.
- And my husband went with me.
- And I kept throwing up every place I went.
- So everybody says, I eat too much food.
- They used to make kneidlach with milk.
- I don't know, foods that are very tasty.
- But I thought it's making me sick.
- I didn't know I was pregnant.
- I was dancing and doing everything.
- And we had love scenes and all kinds of beautiful things.
- So I was in my fourth month already.
- So somebody told me I better go to the doctor.
- Because I didn't get my period either anymore.
- Were you gaining weight?
- No, I wore-- till my seventh month, I was going dancing,
- and I wore regular clothes.
- And really, I gained the whole pregnancy,
- I think, 16 pounds, maybe.
- And I was very small.
- I wasn't big then either, before.
- So when I went to the doctor, and my husband
- was in the hallway.
- And he examines me, and he says--
- he thought I was one of those American--
- German girls running around with a GI, I mean, I'm so young,
- and I'm pregnant.
- He was going to tell me the bad news.
- So he says, you--
- [NON-ENGLISH] he says.
- You're going to be a mother.
- I said, yeah?
- I said tell my husband.
- Oh, he was so happy to hear that I have a husband out here
- in the hallway.
- And I loved it.
- Your husband was delighted, obviously.
- I was too, when I found out.
- I mean, the women-- you should see with it.
- I was like a star was born.
- The women didn't know what to do with me because I was pregnant.
- And I had so many mothers then--
- Was there anything special--
- was there ever any talk--
- I mean, feeling like after so many people had been killed,
- was there ever any feeling that--
- I think everybody who was married immediately had a baby.
- Because I can just see by my friends now, we all have--
- a lot of women had babies, and the babies
- died in the pregnancy.
- So I have a girlfriend here--
- I mean, she has two sons now, but her first child died.
- Were women afraid that they couldn't--
- They won't be able to become, which is quite a few didn't.
- Because of their--
- A close girlfriend of mine-- the one
- that I told you in Jersey that is divorced now
- and is remarried, she was married six years.
- And she was in Auschwitz, though.
- She was very young to be in Auschwitz.
- But she survived because she was one of those--
- she was-- they called it a [NON-ENGLISH]..
- And she was a little girl that was taking care
- of those fancy German ladies.
- She was like their-- maybe they lived with her.
- I don't know, maybe they used her for everything.
- I don't know what they did.
- But she was fixed so she couldn't become pregnant.
- Like men were castrated-- my husband has a friend in Italy,
- that he never came to America, that he survived with him
- together, and he was castrated.
- In the camp.
- In the camp, yeah.
- And why?
- Experimentation?
- Or just so they couldn't give birth?
- See, my husband, someday when you have his interview,
- he was from the first ones in Auschwitz,
- when they had no death ovens yet.
- They were building the crematoriums.
- And, of course, they didn't--
- in those days, at the beginning, maybe they
- didn't have too many separations.
- So right away, they wanted to castrate the man.
- And he was in one of the groups--
- just by pure luck--
- before they used to castrate them,
- they used to put them in a machine to freeze.
- Because they had to go through the surgery.
- They had to put the testicles on a freezing machine.
- And he went in, he says, in that booth,
- and he put his hand on that machine.
- He says, he'd rather be dead.
- If he gets out, and if they'll operate, but maybe
- they won't operate.
- Or maybe-- it's such a horrible thing.
- And he walks out of that booth.
- I mean, the German was watching you through a little window.
- And they gave you so much time.
- And the German said to him, go down, [NON-ENGLISH]..
- I mean, it's a very dirty word--
- get off.
- And he walks out of this little booth.
- And in the street, they grabbed him
- to give blood in the hospital for the German soldiers.
- He was three weeks for-- they called it blood [NON-ENGLISH]..
- Three weeks they took blood from him in the hospital.
- And then they threw him out.
- They used to feed him with some water and some bread.
- And they threw him out.
- When it's meant for him to survive and to be normal,
- the way he is, they threw him out.
- And they grabbed him.
- That's when they started building crematoriums.
- They had to have bricklayers.
- So they took him into a school.
- And over there, they had to give him food.
- And they were teaching him.
- And there were a lot of Polish teachers.
- They weren't SS.
- And they were nicer to people.
- And he got his strength back, and he survived.
- And he was lucky that he wasn't castrated.
- But every guy in the 20s, and 18, 19,
- they were all castrated in those days.
- Wow.
- Did-- yeah, he obviously talks about it.
- I mean, some people can't.
- But he--
- No, he talks about it.
- And you know something, we get together every Sunday
- with our friends.
- We have a club.
- We get together every other Saturday and every Sunday.
- And we have a wonderful time.
- And we play cards.
- And we eat, and we drink, and we always talk about it.
- They haven't missed one time.
- One has to say one word, and they can't stop talking.
- And then somebody will say, hey, it's enough.
- Yeah, I don't know your husband very well, but he
- it's not limited--
- he's very generous.
- He's generous.
- He'll do anything.
- And he gets so upset.
- I mean, I cannot-- like if somebody says something about
- a Jew, I'm afraid of him.
- He once took a customer--
- and even in the North End, you have to be careful.
- You're dealing with an element.
- And he's learning.
- He's been there now for 10 years.
- But don't talk about any Jews to him or anything.
- Any negative thing.
- Any negative things.
- A customer once came in.
- He says, why don't you Jew him down?
- And he let him have it.
- Yeah, I remember hearing that myself
- once when I went to a store, a conversation that
- was being had.
- And someone said, oh, he really tried to Jew me down.
- And when I heard that, I just sort of like
- froze in my tracks.
- I worked for two bosses.
- They're partners in my beauty shop,
- which is a very elegant place.
- And 90% of their clientele is Jewish, rich Jews.
- And my lady boss, the Italian girl, she's wonderful.
- I mean, I don't know whether she likes Jews or not,
- but she never shows any hatred or anything, any difference.
- But the man, the male one, the gay guy, he's obnoxious.
- He hates Jews.
- And he'll sit with me at the table, and he says, no offense,
- Brenda, but she was a real Jewish [NON-NENGLISH]..
- And I cannot get--
- You should say, offense taken.
- Yeah.
- If it would be my husband, I think
- he'd slap him right there and there.
- I just walk away.
- And I just don't say anything.
- And I'm working there, and I walk out.
- And he's nothing to me, just my boss.
- OK.
- Well, so let me ask you, what was your first son's name?
- David.
- David.
- And you had him in--
- Austria, in Salzburg.
- In Salzburg.
- And when was he born?
- He was born in 1946, in August 1946.
- OK.
- And you stayed in Salzburg how long?
- Till '49.
- Now what were your plans when you there?
- Were planning on staying there?
- Did you have thoughts of coming to the United States?
- No, from the day we were married,
- we signed up to come to the United States.
- And every month we were hearing, and they were telling us.
- What was the process that was taking so long?
- Well, it was first--
- first, they said alphabetically.
- And we had W's, so it took us a long time.
- Well, let me ask you, what entitled
- you to come to the States?
- Because your husband had been liberated by Americans?
- To come to America?
- Yeah.
- Oh, you had relatives, right.
- We had relatives.
- And the relatives signed for us.
- They did sign for our housing and for a job that we'll get,
- but they didn't pay for anything.
- And when we came here--
- I had one of my father's sisters, who survived,
- who lives in California.
- She was here already.
- She came in '46.
- She came with the first ship.
- And she knew how it is to live with relatives
- and what they do for you.
- They do nothing.
- So she went to the Jewish HIAS or the family--
- HIAS, right.
- And she told them about us, that we're coming with a child.
- And they would like to-- they should take care of us.
- Because the family's promising my husband
- a job, and maybe an apartment, but
- they should really take over.
- And they really did.
- From the day we got off the ship-- we came to Boston--
- they took us straight--
- HIAS was right there, with the music, and the coffee,
- and everything.
- And they took us right to the most gorgeous family
- in Mattapan.
- It had nothing to do with my family, total strangers.
- The HIAS paid our rent.
- They gave us $20 a week to buy things and food.
- If my son needed shoes, they paid for his shoes.
- If we needed a--
- Beth Israel Hospital was open to us.
- I had two babies.
- Beth Israel--
- Beth Israel Hospital was--
- I had my two babies through the clinic.
- Right, so you had two more sons.
- I had two more sons here.
- yeah, what are their names?
- Michael-- I mean, my second son is Allen
- And when was he born?
- He was born 1950.
- And my youngest son was born in '54 He was just 26 in April.
- So you have David, Michael--
- David, Allen, and Michael.
- David, Allen, and Michael.
- Yeah.
- OK, so you came to the States in 1950?
- 1949.
- 1949.
- We came May 15th.
- May 15 will be 31 years--
- no, 32.
- In 1949-- well, '79, '80--
- '81-- it will be 32 years on May 15th.
- We came on a Sunday.
- OK, so you spent like four years in--
- In Austria.
- And your husband, during that time, worked--
- He worked, like he had the canteen.
- He had mostly the canteen.
- And sometimes they used to-- you needed kosher meat,
- so he used to go to the farms, and buy a cow,
- and they used to bring it to the camps.
- I mean, just making enough to survive, like to eat good.
- I mean, I don't mean luxuriously eat,
- and to go out, to go dancing.
- In the summer, we used to go in the mountains,
- and to pay them with food--
- with eggs.
- Go to the farms, bring eggs to the hotels, where
- there was a few couples of us.
- My husband-- I mean, we just wanted to live life,
- you know what I mean?
- Just we didn't care for tomorrow or-- today,
- we want to live and enjoy life.
- And wanted very much to come to America-- very much.
- When the day came-- we never thought
- for us, because everybody was gone by the time we left.
- Because then it started--
- they told me that my baby--
- I have to be six months pregnant,
- because I can't get on a ship.
- Then when I was six months pregnant,
- they said the baby has to be at least a year old.
- Then when he was a year old, they
- said he's too young to be on a ship.
- And I gave up.
- And when the day came-- he was-- we came here in May,
- and he was three in August.
- He was not quite three when we came.
- OK, so I guess I'd just like to ask you some questions
- now about how you feel the war affected you.
- OK?
- Like when you were going through all the things that you were
- going through, when your parents had been killed
- and everyone, how do you think the war influenced
- your values about things?
- Your values about life, or material possessions, or love,
- or--
- I'll tell you, personally--
- Your attitude about life?
- Yeah.
- I think-- I mean, I feel--
- my husband and I together--
- I mean, he went through 10 times more hell than I did,
- because he was older.
- I couldn't survive in Auschwitz.
- I was too young.
- And personally, I think my husband's and my attitude
- are, from all the people that I know, friends,
- I think we are-- he is terrific.
- And I take life one day at a time.
- And I'm trying to make--
- and I taught my kids, because I think
- I brought up wonderful kids.
- When my son can sit and tell me, just recently-- my middle son--
- he says to me, ma-- he says, I think when you leave a table,
- nobody has one bad word to say about you.
- It makes me feel good.
- We like to live life.
- I mean, we're doing everything we
- can possible good for our kids.
- My two sons are married now.
- My other son, they have wonderful jobs.
- They got promotions, and they do very well financially.
- And they have beautiful wives, and they have good homes.
- And they're wonderful to us.
- I don't mean financial-- we don't need anything, thank God,
- from them.
- But they are so proud of us.
- Because they know.
- I mean, we don't tell them everything, but 90%--
- especially my oldest son.
- He's some day wants to be a writer, he hopes,
- if he can afford it.
- He always dreamed to be a writer.
- He studied journalism in school, and then he
- became a city planner because that was a better field.
- And they-- we take life very--
- I mean, I'm working now in a beauty shop,
- and I'm working very hard.
- And I'm not working to make a living.
- I can live on what my husband makes.
- But I love people.
- And sometimes, I say, why the hell am I working so hard?
- Like a day like yesterday, I killed myself.
- But if I'm there, I'm there to work.
- But I love what I'm doing.
- And I feel good because I'm working.
- I don't think I'm the type that I could stay home and think.
- Like, if God forbid, if I don't feel good, I go crazy.
- Because I am not--
- I don't knit.
- I don't crochet.
- I have no patience for this.
- I'm very fast in everything I do.
- And I just love to be with people.
- That's why I became a hairdresser.
- And I think that life can be wonderful
- if you make it this way.
- That's how I feel about life.
- How about religion?
- Before the war you were--
- My family was very Orthodox.
- I came from a very Orthodox house.
- And I was a very spoiled brat as a kid.
- And I didn't do everything--
- I tried to do everything my father told me to, but a lot
- of things I didn't.
- And when the war broke out, and I was on the farm,
- and when they baptized me in that church, and that priest--
- I was 12 years old, almost 13.
- And they gave me that Bible.
- And I believed like a fanatic in the Catholic religion.
- I really did.
- I was walking all night--
- special when I had to walk out of the house,
- I couldn't stay in the house anymore,
- I used to walk around with that Bible,
- and just read it over and over.
- And I always used to say to myself,
- they're not going to get me, they're not going to get me.
- And I felt when the war was over that it saved my life.
- I don't know, because I think it's
- good to believe in something.
- Now I am not Orthodox Jewish, but I'm very Jewish now.
- You mean traditional?
- I'm very traditional.
- My kids believe in tradition.
- My grandchild now goes to Hebrew school.
- And my son's joined a temple--
- not an Orthodox temple.
- Because first of all, the one they wanted to join
- was very expensive.
- That had a lot to do with it.
- Because my kids are very traditional.
- And they like to go to shul.
- And they do it for their father.
- They give up one day in their shul,
- and they come for the day.
- We belong to a very Orthodox temple here.
- Not because we're Orthodox, because we can't afford it,
- this temple.
- The other shul, we just couldn't get in there.
- And the kids come, and they spend every holiday with us.
- We have-- but I'm not religious or anything
- like-- fanatically religious.
- Do you believe in God?
- I believe-- I don't believe in Jesus or anything like that.
- But I strongly believe in God.
- And I always believe that when I fly--
- and we fly a lot.
- My husband I have at least two, three trips a year.
- And two weeks, I'm a maniac before I
- go anyplace because I'm scared.
- When I get on the plane--
- my husband doesn't even know that--
- I pray so hard.
- My own words-- I just talked to God.
- And I feel he takes care of me.
- I mean, that's how I am.
- There's a guy that works with me.
- He says he does exactly the same thing.
- We were once coming, and it was a little bumpy.
- And that lady next to me was crossing herself.
- And she kept saying to me, don't worry, honey, don't worry.
- She was scared to death.
- She'd say, don't worry, don't worry.
- Once I'm on the plane, I'm wonderful.
- The minute he's got to take off, I close my eyes, I talk to God.
- And I say to God, take me there safe,
- and bring me back to my kids.
- And I'm happy.
- And every time I have to go--
- we're looking forward now to go to Israel,
- which is a very long flight.
- I'm a nervous wreck.
- Like a week--
- To Israel, you mean?
- Yeah, it's a long flight.
- When are you going?
- We're going to go on that Holocaust thing.
- We're already registered.
- Right, that's June.
- They went-- my husband went to the Holocaust meeting
- at the CJP.
- When we had the meeting--
- you were at that meeting.
- Remember, when we had the New Generation after, from Europe?
- Yes.
- And everybody was so excited.
- Now, they gave them a place where to register.
- And they explained to them, if you
- don't register here, when you come to Israel,
- it costs you double to register, to join, or to participate.
- Now, there's maybe six, seven people that registered.
- Everybody was going right away, and everybody wants to go,
- but they think they don't have to register, see.
- Well, we registered.
- And we got our receipt back from New York.
- And we're hoping we can fly out from Boston if it's possible.
- Let me ask you, what kinds of feelings
- did you have about being Jewish after the war?
- I don't know how to answer you that.
- Did you feel--
- I feel-- I don't know how I felt then.
- I feel now that the Jewish people are the strongest
- people in the world.
- Because what has been done to Jews
- hasn't been done to nobody.
- I mean, even if you look now at the--
- I mean, the other day, they showed something on Somalia.
- But nobody's doing it to them.
- You know what I mean?
- I think if they would know how to help themselves, maybe--
- I mean, it's horrible what I saw.
- I mean babies, just skin and bones, and like in Vietnam,
- and all the Cambodia.
- It's terrible, but I think--
- Do you think that you feel for these places
- more so because of your experiences?
- Very much.
- Very much.
- You can relate to them.
- Like my husband and I said, when we watched the thing
- in Somalia, why is it-- there's so much in here,
- what we throw just away the food,
- we can feed the whole world there, just what we--
- America throw.
- And America is the only one that helps those people.
- Nobody else does.
- We feel terrible.
- We cannot understand why.
- But now when I see that a lot of people here are thinking,
- why is it happening to us in Europe?
- Because I can see that.
- We're thinking about it, but what are we doing about it?
- All right, they come for donation, we give.
- But there's so much more that I think
- could be done for those people.
- And that's how-- I feel very much for those people.
- But I still think that we were the worst put on Earth,
- to suffer, the Jews.
- Well, Jews have been persecuted throughout history.
- From the day they were born, I think.
- As your children were growing up,
- did you talk about your experiences with them?
- Myself, not too much.
- Mostly, I told them how I met my husband, because that's
- the funny part of my life.
- And they loved it.
- And they couldn't believe it that anybody
- can meet somebody one day, and three days later, you know.
- That was a very cute story.
- But my husband always tells them.
- And I always stop him.
- Because he gets very emotional.
- I mean, he gets so emotional.
- I mean, you'll need with him six weeks.
- But, I mean, it's true--
- Well, I have time.
- And he lived-- I mean, when you think what he went through,
- and he saw--
- I mean, he's so calm and normal.
- We have friends.
- They play cards every Sunday.
- My husband's not a sore loser.
- My husband doesn't insult anybody
- at the card, which some of the guys are very rude.
- And If he gets excited, I mean, it takes a long time.
- And with my self--
- He's slow to anger, but when he--
- If not for me-- if not for me starting it, I don't think we
- would ever fight.
- I'm very fast, but I can fight with you an five minutes later,
- it's over.
- I am not going to walk around-- he gets mad,
- he wouldn't talk for days.
- I mean, I have to come to the conclusion that I was wrong.
- I'm very stubborn.
- I have a son like this.
- My middle son is just like me in every way.
- And he's wonderful.
- He can do anything.
- I tell his wife, I told her.
- So you're saying that you're quick to anger,
- but you're quick to calm down.
- Very quick to calm down.
- He's slow to anger.
- And very quick to make up.
- And I just don't want to talk about it.
- Let's forget it.
- So it happened.
- Like when you walked in, I talked
- to one of my girlfriends, who we are very close.
- Because we've been here together all those years.
- And she feels that we are-- from all the friends--
- we are the closest.
- And it's true.
- And last year, we did a dirty trick.
- We went away New Years without her,
- because she didn't want to spend the money.
- And we know that she can spend the money.
- She didn't want to.
- And I just wanted to let her know
- that you can't live like this.
- You have to go along with the majority.
- But it killed me.
- It bothered me.
- And we finally got it off our chest.
- And I said to her, I would never do that again.
- I should have left everybody and stayed with her home
- or do something with her.
- It bothered me to death.
- But my husband kept saying, why should we?
- Thank God we're alive.
- When we can, why shouldn't we go?
- So this year's she's going with us.
- That's good that you could talk about it.
- So your husband, then, is the one
- that talked a lot about the war afterwards.
- Yeah.
- To the children, yeah.
- OK, and what was--
- what kind of values do you think you tried to give to your kids
- as they were growing up?
- About life-- in other words, like--
- We wanted them-- we wanted them very much
- to go to Hebrew school because of tradition,
- not because we're Orthodox.
- Because we figured in school at least
- they'll learn something about Judaism,
- more than I can explain to them and tell them.
- I know what I am, but it's harder--
- I can see it helped.
- Not that they loved Hebrew school
- that much, especially my middle son.
- He hated it.
- But he went.
- And they all graduated.
- And my daughter said, it's wonderful.
- I mean, they're both American born girls.
- And I'm very proud of them.
- How about people--
- I mean, you went through a--
- what do you feel in terms of trusting,
- let's say, people, or trusting non-Jews.
- I mean, do you feel--
- do you understand what I mean?
- Because of growing up in a place where
- all the sudden everyone around you was trying to kill you.
- I know.
- I know.
- I mean, do you think that's affected--
- do you feel you're more wary or more suspicious of people?
- That's very possible.
- I think so.
- I definitely think so.
- Sometimes, you look at a person, and say,
- oh, my God, he looks terrible.
- I mean, I have experience at work now.
- A customer-- a new one can come in, and I said, I'm scared.
- She looks so mean.
- And then when I meet her, she's so wonderful.
- So sometimes, maybe that did it to us, the not trusting,
- and not believing immediately that somebody is good or bad.
- What kind of-- when you came to the United
- States, what kind of reception did you get from non-survivors?
- Well, there were quite a few here already.
- Because the first boat came in '46.
- Fortunately, I already had two cousins--
- my aunt was here already.
- And a cousin of mine was here already,
- with her husband and a child.
- These are from other survivors, right?
- Yeah, survivors.
- How about people that weren't survivors?
- What kind of reception from did you
- get from Americans in general?
- My family-- I mean, I had so much family here.
- I mean, not-- very far, like aunts twice removed.
- And they were very nice to us.
- But the strange Americans that I lived with--
- a lot of people are complaining that they were taken advantage.
- I went through an experience that--
- Well, you wanted to ask me how the Americans were towards us,
- treating us.
- Right.
- Well, I had a wonderful experience.
- Because we came here to Boston on a Sunday.
- And right away brought into a beautiful family,
- who gave us a gorgeous room.
- And we had a crib for the baby.
- This is in Mattapan, right?
- In Mattapan, on Avalon Street, 33.
- And there was a Mrs. Gordon, who had
- at that time eight daughters.
- I mean, they were all married.
- Only one lived with her.
- And can you imagine those daughters,
- they showered me with clothes.
- They took me shopping.
- They didn't know what to do for me.
- And she was so wonderful.
- She used to tell me to go out, and she'll
- take care of the baby.
- And my son called her Bubbe Gordon
- because she was wonderful, just like a grandmother.
- I hated to move out of there.
- But I wanted to have my own place.
- I lived there for four months.
- And then one of my aunts, my great aunts,
- happened to have an apartment in Dorchester.
- And she let us move in.
- And my husband fixed it up.
- And in those days, we used to have a cousin's club.
- And the cousins club used to have a happy day fund
- for certain things.
- So they gave us $100 to paint.
- And my husband did his own painting and papering.
- And they gave us money for a snowsuit.
- They had money.
- We had a cousin's club.
- What is that?
- All the Cousins--
- American cousins, they had a cousins club.
- So when I came to this country, I joined the club.
- And we used to meet in a house.
- And they served food.
- And they paid dues.
- And they had money to put away for things.
- This is your family then.
- My family, yeah.
- But the strange family, even after I moved out,
- I socialized with them.
- Because they were total strangers.
- You get off a boat, you don't speak English.
- I spoke maybe three words of English,
- from the American soldiers that we learned certain words--
- gum, and chocolate, and all those other words that
- weren't important.
- And then my husband was here, like I said, a week.
- And he went to work immediately.
- He got a job as a bricklayer.
- They were building the Franklin Park Project.
- And he was making $75 a week.
- It was a fortune to us.
- I mean, really.
- And, of course, I used to spend $5 a week for meat,
- because steak-- who believed in steak?
- I wish I wouldn't believe in it today either.
- We ate chicken and hamburger.
- And we always bought kosher meat.
- And my groceries, and we handled everything terrific.
- And the ladies that I lived with-- that woman,
- her daughters opened up a charge for me at Cummings.
- Did you or your husband apply for reparations?
- What is reparations?
- For things, like--
- No, I mean like from--
- well, I think your husband could have
- for being in a camp, asking Germany to pay you money.
- Oh, yes.
- We applied, and we have received,
- and we receive pensions.
- For both you and your husband.
- Yes.
- I got a smaller sum because I was
- given for being underaged, and being in the ghetto,
- and being-- they call it versteckt, which means hidden.
- And for losing the eyesight, and for certain things.
- But I was given in a lump sum, a small amount.
- Like in those days, $900.
- But I'm going back 20 years ago, which in those days,
- my husband got like $2,000 for being in Auschwitz.
- Later on, people were getting $10,000.
- Because they were going back for all the years
- they didn't pay you.
- But whoever got it first, just got a smaller amount.
- But then they gave us--
- they established a pension fund, which we all get.
- Everybody gets 25% of disability.
- Like that's all they acknowledge, unless you are--
- So what does that amount to?
- Well, it depends how the dollar is.
- We used to get-- we started with $60 a month.
- And then when the dollar went down, went to $130.
- It's only because-- and then they
- give us-- like every so many years, they give you a raise.
- And then--
- And that continues to happen.
- Then your pension contentions-- and continues to happen.
- Now, the thing is with them, that once you die,
- nobody gets that money.
- So our lawyers were trying to get a raise
- or to give us like an a lump sum.
- Because where is the money going to stay?
- With them, with the German government.
- Because everybody is in their late 50s, and 60s, and 70s.
- And the people are dying.
- The wife cannot get it for the husband.
- The children cannot get it.
- But so far, nobody got anything extra.
- But that pension fund we've been getting now
- for the last few years.
- Did you join any survivor organizations
- when you came to the States?
- Oh, yeah.
- To Boston?
- Immediately.
- I mean, we had the New Americans.
- That was there-- they called it then the Hakoah Club.
- They formed a soccer club.
- Soccer?
- Soccer, yeah, because that was a European game,
- and it was quite-- they were all young.
- The men that are today late 50s were in their 30s.
- And they could play.
- And then they organized.
- And we had dances.
- And that's how we became the New Americans.
- And you've been active in that organization--
- I've been active from, I think, the day I got off the boat.
- They got me into it.
- I started in with being in all the committees.
- And then I became vice president.
- And then I became chairman of this.
- And there's only-- from 15 people, always
- three, four work.
- And it's still today.
- Now I'm just an honorary member.
- Because I was president, and I couldn't elected twice.
- But I still do the work because nobody wants to do it.
- We're having nominations now.
- We nominated the whole committee.
- Half of them don't even want to be nominated.
- Then we wanted to nominate new people.
- They refused.
- So it's going to be-- again, I said to the president,
- we should nominate 10 people and have five--
- Could you tell me why you joined a survivor organization?
- What were your motivations for joining it?
- Most of it was just to meet people like ourselves
- and to be together socially.
- So it was mostly a social organization?
- It still is.
- And it was mostly socially to get together.
- And the best experience we had at our last Hanukkah party,
- they didn't stop talking.
- Nobody was dancing.
- The floor was empty.
- They talked their heart-- the men especially.
- [CROSS TALK]
- At this Hanukkah party, this was the one last week, right?
- About what?
- Just to each other.
- I mean, I don't know, maybe--
- They enjoy--
- Mostly politics.
- Did they have a common sort of--
- One word about Israel, and everybody just going crazy.
- They talking.
- Mostly politics.
- When you-- in the United States growing up--
- well, raising your children, what language
- did you and do you speak in the house?
- Well, 90% we speak Jewish.
- But when I'm outside of my house,
- in my husband's business, we speak only English.
- So you spoke Yiddish--
- Once in a while, we spoke Polish.
- To my children?
- No, I never spoke Yiddish to my children.
- Do they understand Yiddish.
- I broke my tongue with my oldest son, who was a baby.
- He spoke German.
- And he learned English very fast.
- And I went to night school for six years,
- and I learned English very fast too.
- I really picked it up very fast.
- But do your children understand Yiddish?
- My oldest son speaks a little Yiddish,
- and he understands everything.
- My youngest son understands and speaks maybe three words.
- My middle son is completely out of it.
- OK, he never got into Yiddish.
- No, no Yiddish.
- You said you didn't talk very much about the war
- to your children.
- Not myself, no.
- If they said something-- when they were little
- I didn't talk about it at all.
- And when they became--
- when they started to study in school-- and, of course,
- they didn't study no Holocaust in their days.
- But they read.
- My sons all read.
- They read more books than I did.
- And they don't believe it's real,
- but they know we were there.
- Well, when they ask--
- what do you communicate to them about the Holocaust?
- When they ask you questions and things, like about why or--
- We just say to them that we were left on this Earth, I think--
- I always say that that should never happen again.
- That's why we were meant to survive.
- And we hope that the new generation will work on it
- even harder, that those things shouldn't happen.
- Do you think another Holocaust is possible?
- The way things are going on now, I hope not.
- But I just think if something really
- happens as bad as it happened to the Jews,
- it will happen to the whole world.
- It's not just going to happen to the Jews.
- I don't think so anymore.
- Because of the--
- First of all, the Jews are stronger now.
- --technological age were in?
- Yes, and I think because of Israel.
- I mean, Israel gives us the biggest support.
- We are so proud of it I think.
- And the world won't have such a chutzpah to us,
- to do anything to us like they did before.
- Because Jews were treated just like worse than animals,
- I think, in Europe.
- Well, do you think a Holocaust is possible in the United
- States, for example?
- We feel-- a lot of us feel that there's plenty of anti-Semitism
- in this country.
- And we feel that the Americans wouldn't hesitate one minute
- to be just as mean as the Pollacks or anybody else.
- We feel like that, and we're plenty scared about it.
- Because we don't want to see it ever again.
- But we do feel.
- Because there's great--
- But the United States is also a democracy.
- Especially we feel more here the anti-Semitism that America
- ever-- that the American Jew can feel.
- We feel that-- we thought we were coming here,
- and you won't know the difference between a Jew,
- but you do.
- Especially when we just came here
- when there were hotels with the restrictions, with things.
- We couldn't believe that it's happening in this country.
- When you first came to here--
- Oh, yeah.
- --and you saw the restrictions for the Jews.
- When we heard about Arthur Godfrey, with his hotel,
- that Jews couldn't come in, we couldn't believe it.
- It's a country of freedom.
- When we came and there was--
- I know there still are exists, maybe not too many.
- Because they needed the Jewish money.
- So they sell them the land, and the houses, and the hotels.
- So a Jew can move in.
- He buys it.
- And maybe that's why they resent us so much.
- But when we came to this country, and they told
- us there are places--
- I mean, when I wanted to move in Milton,
- they wouldn't sell a house to a Jew in Milton,
- not 30 years ago.
- Did that make you afraid?
- I couldn't believe it.
- I wasn't afraid.
- I said I would never want to live there.
- Why should I live in somebody who doesn't want me?
- It's a free country.
- So we couldn't believe it, actually.
- What kinds of feelings do you have about the country
- in which you live?
- I mean, about the United States.
- Now?
- Yeah.
- I think, to my knowledge, it's the freest and the best country
- in the world.
- Because I think that the Jews here are so strong, in America.
- And the other countries, the Jews
- in the other countries, and especially with Israel
- as a background, that shouldn't happen here again.
- I'm hoping not.
- And my children are very Americanized.
- I mean, very strong Americans--
- first Americans, that's how they feel about it.
- As opposed to Jewish, you mean?
- No, no, no.
- No, no, not as Jewish.
- Like my oldest son wasn't born here.
- But he feels very much as an American.
- I see what you mean.
- Yeah.
- Right.
- That's what I mean.
- Right.
- Yeah.
- OK.
- In what ways do you feel the Holocaust affected the course
- of your life?
- I mean, that may sound like a strange question.
- I don't think-- it's not a strange question.
- I don't think how it's affected--
- had interrupted.
- We feel that we lost part of our life.
- Like my childhood was gone.
- I was 12 years old when the war broke out.
- That's when your life begins.
- That's adolescence.
- Because I was six years old.
- And as a six-year-old-- from six to 12, I had a very nice life.
- I was an only child.
- I always had nice clothes, and my parents--
- I was an only child.
- I had everything I wanted, what I could have,
- what I could afford it in Europe.
- But that's where your life-- when you see here what
- a 12-year-old kid goes through, having from 12 till you're
- 16 or 17.
- And not having your parents to be married.
- Not having your parents when you have your children.
- And that's the biggest loss.
- Yeah.
- You didn't talk very much about-- you
- mentioned that your parents had died and everything.
- Yeah.
- Did you grieve much over that?
- I grieve much more now than I ever did.
- I don't think-- I didn't even think it was real then.
- That's my mother's painting, and I cried the other day.
- And I said to myself, why did it happen?
- You ask yourself those questions now.
- Yeah, why?
- She was so young.
- But when I think of it, how young she was--
- I'm now almost 52 years old.
- She was only 34 years old.
- She was younger than my daughter.
- And my sister was four years old.
- And they were in their prime of life.
- And you can't-- they didn't do nothing.
- You just think of those things.
- They didn't do nothing to nobody.
- They minded their own business.
- And my mother, especially, was such a good person.
- But when it happened, because it happened to everybody,
- and we were so scared of our own lives
- that we didn't believe that it happened
- to them, that they really are dead,
- and that they'll never come back.
- Sort of denying it.
- In other words--
- Exactly.
- --just. not facing it.
- No, it didn't happen.
- It's not real.
- I remember the day when the boy came,
- and he told me that they were all taken away.
- I didn't even, for one moment, get emotional
- that I've lost my mother, because I felt like maybe
- they're not going to kill her.
- But I better watch out for me now.
- Well, that's the first instinct, is to think about--
- Exactly.
- --preserving your own life.
- And I know that there were stories--
- and they were true stories, that in bunkers,
- and in hiding places, mothers choked their own babies
- so they can survive.
- And it's true.
- Things like this happened, not too much, but it happened.
- But if not for pictures, I don't think
- we could remember our parents.
- You have pictures.
- I have a lot of pictures, thanks to Israel.
- My aunts-- my parents used to write there.
- In fact, I want to show you.
- You want to stop this?
- Sure.
- OK, well, I think the interview is pretty much over.
- I guess I just wanted to ask you,
- we spent a couple hours talking about your experiences,
- and how have you felt answering these questions?
- Have they been difficult for you to answer?
- You said that you didn't really talk about your experiences.
- To my children, no.
- When my children were younger, and now, somehow,
- when I get together with my children,
- we never discuss our experiences.
- If they would ask me, I would answer them.
- I would tell them--
- Do they know--
- --everything.
- Do they know your particular story.
- They know--
- The outline maybe.
- They know more-- yeah, more or less.
- They know where I was hiding, because we
- talked about it many times.
- And when my husband is around, and we start talking,
- his story is so much more exciting,
- so that he takes over.
- So they listen.
- His story is much more emotional.
- How do you feel about that?
- About him taking--
- Yeah.
- Well, I feel that for my age, I went through enough.
- And you can't really remember everything
- to tell when somebody interviews you.
- There were so many things that happened
- to me on the farm, experiences.
- No, I don't mean how you feel--
- Oh, you mean how--
- How do you feel about the fact that sometimes
- because his story is more interesting or more exciting--
- It doesn't bother me.
- It's not an exciting story.
- It's a horror story.
- And I think my kids should know about it.
- And maybe someday, when they have-- can afford
- and they have the time, maybe they'll write about it.
- Because all the stories--
- my story is more like an Anne Frank story.
- Yeah.
- It's just that she wrote about it.
- She kept a diary.
- And I don't think I knew what a diary was in that war.
- I guess when you were telling me your story, I was thinking--
- I was thinking about the diary of Anne Frank.
- And she was pretty much the same age.
- Yeah, she was.
- Just sort of like you were just--
- I just saw the show again.
- And I said to my husband, my God,
- I lived through much worse things
- than-- much more traumatic things than her.
- She at least was with her parents till the last minute,
- because she went in with them.
- And then they were all killed, I think, wasn't it?
- Yeah.
- Well, her father survived.
- Right, her father is the only one.
- Her father survived.
- But the thing that you both did have in common
- was that you both were just sort of beginning
- to blossom in terms of--
- That's right.
- --a woman.
- We were at the beginning of life.
- When I became a woman, I didn't even
- know what it was, that I'm becoming a woman.
- Right, and that's not--
- And that is something that I think
- that was a big loss in our lives,
- I mean for girls like myself, not
- to have your mother to be excited with you,
- till you meet a man.
- I mean, when a girl is young--
- I mean, I didn't even dream about it at 12.
- But after the war, I never dreamed
- I'll get married so fast.
- But I used to lie in bed sometimes, and saying,
- oh, someday I'll meet that one, the Prince Charming.
- There was a boy that I-- he was very good looking.
- And I just looked at him, that's all.
- But it never dawned on me.
- Because everybody treated me like a kid, even in the camps,
- after the war.
- In the DP camp.
- Yeah.
- There was a lot of guys and girls,
- but we were called the kids.
- They called us the kids.
- The boys that were our age, they called us kids.
- They were not much older.
- Maybe they were 17.
- But I was flat chested.
- I was very skinny.
- I had straight hair, never wore lipstick or makeup.
- I put on lipstick for the first time the day of my wedding,
- and I never put it on again afterwards.
- I didn't need it.
- I had red cheeks, and I blossomed right away.
- I became pregnant.
- And I looked terrific.
- But all this, we missed.
- And as much as you try to make it up--
- I mean, I am trying so much to make it up.
- I said to myself, if I have it or I don't have it,
- when my first son is bar mitzvahed,
- I'm going to make the biggest party that I can make it.
- And I did it.
- I had 120 people.
- It was-- then it wasn't that much money,
- but I made a beautiful party.
- I invited relatives and friends.
- And when my first son was getting married,
- I thought the whole world is wonderful.
- And they didn't want to have a big wedding, and I insisted.
- I said, if they don't make it, I'm going to--
- I mean, we wanted so much to have all those things
- that we hoped to have, and we couldn't have for ourselves.
- So we're trying--
- I think now we're still trying to live--
- to do things that we think that we missed in life.
- And we're trying to do it as fast as we can.
- Because life is passing us by so fast.
- And the scary thing is that so many of our friends,
- at our age--
- I mean, maybe not my age, but my husband's age,
- you hear so many sicknesses.
- Because I think all those good things
- that happened in the camps are finally--
- Catching up.
- --catching up with people.
- The pressures, the blood pressure,
- and the head pressure, and--
- The psychological--
- Yeah.
- And as you get older, and if you think about it,
- affects you much harder.
- And I think when you were younger,
- you were so busy making a living and trying
- to make a life in a new country, that now you have more time
- to think about it.
- And you're getting older too.
- And you're getting older.
- And so you're starting to realize--
- you're getting older--
- And look at what we went through, and how did we do it?
- And every time I think about it, I just say,
- how can any human being-- like what my husband went through--
- unbelievable.
- Thank God we made it.
- And you felt pretty content with your life in the United States.
- Very much.
- We are very happy here.
- And we have a lot of pleasure from our children.
- And we think we brought them up beautifully.
- And they're good kids.
- And I don't--
- I just pray to God for my husband
- to be well so we can go to Israel.
- And he would love to live in Israel.
- He would love it.
- Because he has nobody here at all.
- And he has a big family there--
- I mean cousins-- first cousins, that they
- were in Auschwitz together.
- And his cousin was here twice already.
- My husband brought him over for the wedding and everything.
- OK, well, thank you very much.
- It was my pleasure.
- And you'll get my husband next.
- Right.
Overview
- Interviewee
- Brenda Wluka
- Date
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interview:
1980 December 21
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- English
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3 sound cassettes (60 min.).
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- Holocaust, Jewish (1939-1945)--Personal narratives. Holocaust survivors--United States.
- Personal Name
- Wluka, Brenda.
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- The interview with Brenda Wluka was conducted on December 21, 1980 by One Generation After, a Boston based group of children of Holocaust survivors, for the One Generation After oral history project. The tapes of the interview were received by the United States Holocaust Memorial Museum on January 7, 1990.
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Oral history interview with Albert Tilles
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Oral history interview with Helen Tilles
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Oral history interview with Sigmund Turner
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Oral history interview with Icek Wluka
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Oral history interview with Esther Wolrich
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Oral history interview with Leo Wolsky
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Oral history interview with Edgar Krasa
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Oral history interview with Arje Latz
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Oral history interview with Sima Manela
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Oral history interview with Victor Penzer
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Oral history interview with Helena Herman
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Oral history interview with Maurice Vanderpol
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Oral history interview with Arnold Wininger
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Oral history interview with Charlotte G. Goldberg
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Oral history interview with Denise Schorr
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Oral history interview with Sidney Rachlin
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Oral history interview with Hana Fuchs Krasa
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Oral history interview with Janina Greenwood
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Oral history interview with Irene Woods Hofstein
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Oral history interview with Gizi Mark
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Oral history interview with Charlotte Koopman
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Oral history interview with Netty Schwarz Vanderpol
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Oral history interview with Kip Winston
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Oral history interview with Sidney Wolrich
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Oral history interview with Denise Schorr
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Oral history interview with Beatrice Simkovich
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Oral history interview with Samuel Stern
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Oral history interview with Franya Russak
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Oral history interview with Carl [Karl] Schlesinger
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Oral history interview with Eva Schlesinger
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Oral history interview with Clara Rev
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Oral history interview with Anna Riemer
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Oral history interview with Marie Rosenberg
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Oral history interview with Cecelia Perera
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Cecilia Perera, born in Sarajevo, Yugoslavia (now in Bosnia and Herzegovina), discusses the relations between Jews and non-Jews in Sarajevo before the war; being one of seven children of a religious family; the Italian occupation; living with her husband and 14-year-old son at the time of the occupation; her husband’s olive oil factory; the fate of her family members during the war; going with her family to Italy (November 1943 until 1947); living in Bari and then Torino; immigrating to the United States after her son received a scholarship to Massachusetts Institute of Technology; working as a seamstress; her sister who survived Bergen-Belsen; and two of her siblings who live in Israel.
Oral history interview with Hugo Princz
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Oral history interview with Szlomo Reff
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Oral history interview with Zezette Larson
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Oral history interview with Sam Natanson
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Oral history interview with Stella Penzer
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Oral history interview with Berko Kolodner
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Berko Kolodner, born in 1893 in Krynki, Poland, discusses his five brothers and three sisters; his father who had a leather factory; his religious upbringing; being sent to Bialystok, Poland for high school; his desire to attend university, but not being allowed to because he was Jewish; serving in the Russian army during WWI; his family being poor after the war; moving to Switzerland, where he earned his medical degree at the University of Bern in 1925; working as a physician in Vilna (now Vilnius, Lithuania); the Germans bombing and invading Vilna; being sent to the Vilna ghetto; the terrible conditions in the ghetto; his medical practice in the ghetto; his wife, who was also in Vilna; his family in Krynki being deported to Treblinka; Jacob Gens, a ghetto leader, who tried to hold the people together in the ghetto but was eventually killed; the liquidation of the ghetto; his wife being sent to Auschwitz and killed; being sent to several camps in Estonia, including Vaivara, Kuremäe, Lagedi, and Goldfields; the conditions in those camps; being taken by boat to Germany and then Stutthof, where he worked on roofs; being in Buchenwald for two weeks, where he felt like he was dying but people gave him a little more food; the overwhelming hunger at that time; being sent to Colditz in Saxony, Germany; being sent on a starvation march to Theresienstadt; working as a doctor in Theresienstadt, but having no medications to treat people; being liberated by the Russians; one friend from Vilna, Dr. Brijetski who wrote a book about their experiences and eventually moved to Israel; believing he survived by a miracle; being very sick at liberation and spending several months in the hospital in Prague, Czech Republic with a serious staph infection; recovering; working in a monastery, St. Ottilien Archabbey, near Munich for three years; working as a physician the monastery, which was partially transformed into a hospital; meeting his wife there; his positive interactions with the Americans; going to the Netherlands in 1950; immigrating to the United States; the difficulty he has experienced adjusting to life in the US; and not receiving reparations from Germany.
Oral history interview with Ralph Kornberg
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Oral history interview with Esther Krakowski
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Oral history interview with Ben Jacobs
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Oral history interview with Rita Kesselman
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Oral history interview with Judith Kochavi
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Oral history interview with Mania Kohn
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Oral history interview with Frieda Grayzel
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Oral history interview with Rachel Helfgot
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Oral history interview with Ed Herman
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Oral history interview with Joseph Fischer
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Oral history interview with Hala Goldstein
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Oral history interview with Mayer Goldstein
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Oral history interview with Steve Collins
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Oral history interview with Yael Danieli
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Oral history interview with Barbara Farkas
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Oral history interview with Jacob Birnbaum
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Oral history interview with Eugenia Boroff
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Oral history interview with Lonia Albeck
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Oral history interview with Mira Birnbaum
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